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its myee life.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

omg. i actualli run into him...
after [let mi see..] 4 years?
a feeling unknown..
oh well.. wudever.
running into mYee darz is niCee though ['',]

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11/30/2005 11:03:00 PM

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Friday, November 25, 2005

a promise is not meant to be broken.
promises are not called promises
if they are meant to be broken
hate it when ppl bReak their promise
anD i swear i hate it even morre
when i am the one who break it
grr..
i havent thought of how
but i have to make up fer it
somehow
i am anD i will.

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11/25/2005 11:16:00 PM

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Saturday, November 19, 2005

evidence that miss chong chun ying has been her mummy's good girl and mugging on this lovely saturday

when she could haf gone shopping.

hahaa! convinced?

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11/19/2005 08:04:00 PM

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Friday, November 18, 2005

alrights.
am finally done with chem.
aint feeling exactly great though
felt as though the world just collapsed on mi
AGAIN
to my dear five: thx gals. fer trying so hard to "bleach" mi. love u all (:
anw, was on my way to school
and i came to realise how couples dun tok to each other.
i mean
not even a single word throughout the journey?
and they aint on cold wars alrights.
kinda sad
i mean
is that marriage 20 years down the road?
pardon mi fer being cynical
but if that is
i guess i would rather not haf one
wud made it worse
i can even feel this drifting apart thingy btw myee parents
they aint as loving as before
somehow.
oh well, i neva wanted a marriage in the first place.
i tink it spoils everything
it makes everithing that was once perfect imperfect.
the furthest i will go is engagement i guess
yeps. that's all.
thanks.
and myee daddy
why does he feels like a complete stranger to mi all the sudden?
i used to lurf him
more than i lurf myee mummy
but why issit that i no longer bother to communicate wif him these daes?
alrights.
i noe i am one big problematic kid.
but something's wrong.
with someone.
mi? him? whoever.
omg.
the world is realli not round.
[wudever this means to you]
eugh.
this is freaking irritating
3/4 of the world is done wif their As
anD da la~
i'm still here
trapped.
thank you very much.
biodiversity.
grr...
and sweetie xixxi is going Genting.
gonna miss the gal.
went out wif her daes ago
am so glad i got myee " auntie " back(:
depp!e deppie yeppie~
she sure make a great company.
hahaa! in the midst of doing chem mcQs,
i came to realise morre weird habits of mine.
aint realli tough actualli
since stella sis alwix saes that i am such a weirdo
here goes.
1. i neva touch any part of the lift wif myee bare hand [this inc. pressing of the buttons] or lean against it. i tink it's ~~gross~~ VERY gross.
2. i lurf buying barbie doll series stuff. [this is better known as childish i guess]
3. i brush myee eyelashes upwards while mugging [this is a mere desperate attempt to haf nicee curl eyelashes]
4. eating onli the biscuit part of oreo
5. i dun take vanilla milk etc etc etc
6. i dun like doing work by the table
7. i seldom carry ntuc carrrier. i would rather stuff it all inside myee bag.
......
...
..
shall update when i am done wif this whole thing known as the A LEVELs.
right now
back to myee annelida mollusca arthropoda echinodermata fish ... YAWN.
if you are done wif ya As.. kindly DO NOT LAUGH!

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11/18/2005 11:48:00 PM

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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

it hit mi realli hard this time round
after my sleep
i still cant get over it
and i am still thinking about it now!
this is so not mi can.
i am usually not like this
wonder wud got over mi.
anw
believe it anot
i started on my chemistry paper 1 revision earlier on
surprised?
well..
people like mi just have to learn the hard way i guess.
alrights.
let mi try to be a source of positive peer influence here.
darlings.
start mugging fer paper 1 right now!
kiex.
i tink i am crazy.
neh~

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11/15/2005 06:24:00 PM

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oh my.
there goes mYee pretty A
B i mean.
this is bad bad bad bad and still bad
bad beyond description it was
bad enough to rob mi of all my emotions
well.. except anger and disappointment perhaps
YES.
i'm whining again
despite the fact that i have promised to stop all these nonsense
i dunch care
i just cant help it
like hello?
wud's cambridge's problem LAH?
i thought acidity basicity or stability of organic compounds and their conjugate bases or wudever has been ur all-time favourite?
why wasnt a single Qn set this year?!!
this was like the first time i even bother to mug fer it LAH
fuck.
anD organic chem.. something's not right.
very wrong in fact.
how could a hydroxyl anD carboxyl group co-exist?
not that it cant
but it's not supposed to
when unknown compounds are given
this aint making any sense.
this clearly went beyond what was meant to be application
it's sheer guesswork
and so it's mere luck and no big deal if one got that right
that ONE question. 20minutes spent?
not figuring out the answer
but figuring out what's wrong with myee answer
since i neva knew that the two functional groups could coexist like that.
and it's simply demoralising
when u noe u got your most confident Qn wrong as well
the feeling simply sucks alrights.
grrr..
wudever
i dunch wish to continue animorre
this is so pissifying
or rather irrtating
when things i haf studied chose not to appear in my script
and strange Qns smile vilely at mi anD go
"hi there. u aint gonna get ur A. hahaa! "
the onli marks that i could perhaps score. the last resort.
sympathetic marks
then again
i tink it's gone too
since in an attempt to be rebellious
i chose not to write neatly.
oh wudever.
perhaps it's just mi who's just not smart enough
since i dun see a problem wif people ard mi
awful!
i nearly died today. neh!

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11/15/2005 10:41:00 AM

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Monday, November 14, 2005

miss chong chun ying is feeling bored.
she saw this on some blogsite
and decided to come up wif a list herself.

Type 5 weird habits in your blog.
1. i drink 3/4 of a sachet of milo and eat [yes darling. i mean eat] 1/4 of it
2. using every reflective surface i see as myee makeshift mirror [and that includes noticeboard along the school corridors]
3. i sleep with my lights and music on.
[speaking bt that. myee zZzping position is weird too. hahaa! i shant elaborate on that]
4. not using myee data booklet or formula booklet
5. leaving my phone on wif no vibration or tone.
anD a last one. that's not realli weird but part of mi. i.e. laughing like nobody's buz. hahaa!

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11/14/2005 08:27:00 PM

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Sunday, November 13, 2005

look wud i haf got from sijia todae.
aim high , expect low
made sense?
hahaa.
smart way to make oneself happy (:
and here's another one from the ger
never allow oneself to fall into the trap
of thinking we haf got lotsa time ['',]
anw. speaking of traps.
realised how people kip repeating their mistakes and stuff?
falling into the same trap time and again
is this part of wud we call human nature?

anw.
saw this heading on the front cover of CLEO
"how to eat to lose those extra kgs"
that caught myee attention as usual
kinda expected though
it's amazing
how i can neva get bored wif articles like this
how these headings neva fail to grab myee attention
it's not as though i dunch noe the proper ways
i could easily name a few off the list
typical ones that one alwix read in magazines on net or wudever
this is simply wud desperation's all about
mere desperation
to shed off those extra pounds
oh well
in any case
it's with people like mi around
that these industries are earning big bucks alrights.
neh~

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11/13/2005 11:39:00 PM

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omg. u wldnt wanna noe wud i juX read. i cant believe[neither do i want to] that this is happening to myee favourite brand. eewwwiiee. how uncool. awful LAH. whines~

Adidas plans 3 solution to Olympic stripe ban
by Drew Barrand Marketing 8 Nov 2005 LONDON

Adidas is to replace its iconic three-stripe design with the number 3 across its product portfolio.

The sportswear brand's three-stripe design was banned by the International Olympic Committee earlier this year, following complaints from rivals that it gave Adidas an unfair advantage over other kit suppliers.

Herbert Hainer, the company's chief executive, told senior executives at an internal meeting last week that it plans "to come up with a creative solution using the number 3". This marks the first time Hainer has publicly accepted the IOC's decision.

The German firm will be restricted to a 20cm2 space for its logo on Olympic athletes' apparel, in line with limits imposed on other companies.

It is unlikely that the '3' design will attempt to circumvent these guidelines, given the close attention the IOC will be paying to Adidas apparel at the Turin Winter Olympics next February.

Hainer would not provide any further details on the overhauled identity, which is likely to be rolled out across the brand's future product lines in the professional athlete and consumer lifestyle markets next year. However, Adidas confirmed that it was exploring the concept.

Following the IOC's decision to limit the use of Adidas' 40-year old three-stripe design, tennis' four governing bodies, including the ATP and WTA, have followed suit; they are enforcing similar branding controls on Adidas apparel at all official tournaments next year.

Other major sports governing bodies are now under pressure to fall into line over the coming months, especially sports that hold Olympic status.

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11/13/2005 06:49:00 PM

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15 nov: _______________
18 nov: _______________
21 nov: _______________
24 nov: _______________
saw the dates?
YES. four papers two subjects over a span of 2 weeks
and that means As will not be over fer mi
until 24 nov
2 weeks!
neh~
omg. neva seen a worse timetable
grr...
and mummy is already asking mi out fer shopping
hahaa.
i dun mind going though (:
since she dun really shop at auntie places
[need i further eleborate on wud auntie places are? hahaa]
speaking of that
mummy was like telling mi some auntie behaviours she saw on train that dae
and she ended off telling mi this
'aunties are ultimately still aunties'
hahaa.
wud an irony rite?
i tot so ['',]
kiex. this is btw u and mi kie kie =)
she is so gonna strangle mi if she noes wud i told u people. ha3.
anD mummy wldnt stop telling mi bt Gerald!
this is kinda pissifying actually.
i hope i dunch see him next week
blehx~
wuDever.
anw, now that the horrendous hectic week is over
i am not gonna worry about the papers animore
i dunch tink i ever want to think bt it till nxt year
so dun even remind mi
if i were to worry about it
i would haf an endless list of complaints insecurities and worries
let mi try.
- not a single Qn set on kidney fer biology
after mugging so much fer it
i could haf at least given a decent answer lah
if they are kind enuff to set at least ONE Qn on that.
-i got mitosis anD meiosis mixed up
-i left the whole section on option COMPLETELY blank fer chemistry
there goes myee possible pretty A.
-i happily wrote a GP essay on an intangible topic. luck.
when tong yee told us time and again neverr to touch it .
-i wrote a summary that was hopelessly long and didnt haf time to edit that
-i havent got any idea wud a statement is
are they asking fer a complete sentence or just a mere phrase?
-maths paper 1 was horrid
-i spent a damn hell lot of time on a simple Mathematical Induction Qn
which is worth like 6marks?
stuck yet refused to go on to other Qns
insisting that i can solve it
since a similar one came out fer our J1 mids last year.
-paper 2 was worse
-i still cant do a proper complex qn
not that i did not put in efforts to make sense out of it.
-i didnt get to do hypothesis testing question
after doing so many Qns on that
fuck.
-DRV was tedious
working all over the place
and still like a 100 miles away from the answer
dumb
thanks i feel so smart AGAIN. boo!
see wud i meant?
hahaa.
i beta stop complaining before i start swearing again.
and before u ppl fall asleep
hahaa.
anw.
had a list of post As activities in mind ald
am so excited
i just cant wait
_______________________________________________________________
kickboxing
driving license
work
chalets
gatherings
prom
reading a book
[@t wldnt let mi read til after As! hrmph~]
......
...
..
and not forgetting SHOPPING!
ha!
i juX cant live without that.
all awaiting mi!
depp!e deppie yeppie~
oh yeps.
whang:
happy sweet eighteen darling(:
u are finally 18!! hahaa!

the b!rthdae ger cutting the pseudo cake wif her pseudo knife (:

and the heavenly Strawberry Bonanza. Slurp!

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11/13/2005 11:57:00 AM

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Friday, November 11, 2005

was at SOT ytd
doing gp paper 2 and stuff
and heard this ger asking tong yee
"why are you so surprisd that the world's so small?"
makes mi wonder
so wud is it exactly
that brings two people to know each other?
to become siblings friends couple or wudever
fate?
nah
i dun believe in that
i think it's mere crap
i think it's smthg more amazing
i have yet to haf any idea wud it is though
alrigths
i mux be damn free
to think bt such stuff
well perhaps i realli am
pseudo post As
hahaa!
anw. perfect date wif the five todae
depp!e deppie yeppie~

am lovin this(:

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11/11/2005 11:53:00 PM

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Saturday, November 05, 2005

tears
it's indeed true that life's fragile
xixxi's granny left her
this is freaking sudden fer anione to accept
let alone xixxi
her granny was still alive kicking ytd morning
and by nightfall
she left this world
[death neva once made sense to mi]
the gal didnt get to see her granny fer the last time
to make it worse
her granny's cremation's jux next tuesday
yes.. the dae when we will all be sitting in the examination hall
taking our A level maths paper
i realli wish there's morre i could do fer xixxi
rubby was telling mi she felt the same way
it realli hurts
to see her hafing go thru" all these crap
esp at a point of time like this
anD we cant even be there fer her!
by her side.
i hate this.
it's realli awful.
laugh at my immaturity if u haf to
but i realli wish i could just scream into the ear
of whoever or wudever that stole xixxi granny from her
HAVE "YOU" GOT ANY COMMON SENSE??!!
THIS AINT FAIR.
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO HER?
OF ALL PEOPLE?
U ARE SO BLIND
SHE DOESNT DESERVE THIS!!
she asked mi a question
that left mi dumbfounded fer a second
why did it all happen
when she least expected it
it took mi a while
to gather my thoughts
and gave a decent ans
it triggered my thoughts
at that very moment,
many thoughts were running across
at the back of myee mind
we all noe tat it's excruciating to part wif ur loved ones
ever since when was letting go ever easy rite?
yes.. true that there comes a fateful dae
when we all haf to part
that it's part and parcel of life
that it's just a harsh reality we have to cum to recognise with
as we grow
but i'm sorry
i guess that's smthg i neva will be able to learn
like wud i said
call mi childish if u haf to
i would rather not grow up that way
looking on the brighter side
her granny would be in a better place
perhaps the heaven
more empowered than ever
to bless her loved ones
her granny chose to bid a silent goodbye
i thought that was great of her
that it was just a way of loving the ones ard her
that she didnt want to see the ones she loved tear fer her
stay strong fer ya loved ones
when they are at their weakest point.
smthg i learned ytd
i dunnoe wud's this doing here
but it jux came to myee mind
pardon mi if this post's distorted
i aint thinkin straight
i wish that i can see myee smiling xixxi again
i realli do
but i haf no idea
how long that will take.

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11/05/2005 03:02:00 PM

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Friday, November 04, 2005

myee darling xixxi's right now in hospital
her granny's in e emergency room
that poor ger
she mux be panicking right now
*praying hard that her granny will be alright.
i haf experienced it.
anD i am positive
i dun wan anione around mi
to go through wud i went thru"
it's a tough time to get by
to not even haf the basic security and assurance
that ya loved ones will remain by ya side
the feeling simply sucks.
when you can no longer can be sure of anithing
when u simply lost the courage
to take things fer granted
[not that i took myee granny fer granted anw]
when u neva noe when is the last time u get to see the one u loved
a m!racle happened to myee granny
i managed to keep her by my side
we were that close to giving her up
myee urge to put an end to all her sufferings
was so strong back then
after all that happened
i aint sure i'm that approving of euthanasia animorre
imagine if we all had agreed
to let the doctors take remove all the tubes on her
*shivers
to whoever wanted to take myee granny away from mi back then
purleese allow xixxi's granny
to stay by her side too
i wish
that the same m!racle
that happened to myee dear granny
would happen to xixxi's too.
dear gal:
if mine can pull through after so many ordeals
i'm sure your granny can too
trust mi
they all haf strong will (:
she will be alright.
stay strong ['',]
*hugX

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11/04/2005 06:56:00 PM

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Thursday, November 03, 2005

smthg interesting i came across todae
the world would be a dull one
if we all agreed on everything.
hahaa. it came to dawn upon mi
that it's alwix a thin line btw things.
anw, a great session wif tong yee todae (:
deppie depp!e yeppie~
ha3.
anw, i tink i shld seriously consider
to stop being so vain.
neh~
i said consider if u dint realise.
heeX.

anw. got this from tong yee todae.
whee~
niCee =)
anD it's pink!!
am lovin" it to bits!
hahaa. tra-lala~

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11/03/2005 10:04:00 PM

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*shriek.
damn screwed up.
wud on earth am i doing?
time and again i told myself a miracle is gonna happen
somehow.
that i'm gonna make it
and that i will.
yet
time and again
it juX seems nothing more than a mere illusion to mi.
grr...
wudever.
these may well be of no significance to mi 50 years down the road.
so why shld i bother?
yet
the harsh reality hit mi
hard
smack mi in the face or wudever
the As still matters
at least 10 years down the road.
so it jux meant i have to stop whining
and get back to myee books.
boo!
and this aint fun.
obviously.

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11/03/2005 11:33:00 AM

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omg. freak! however hard i pray that i wun hear Ryan Cabrera's [ true] again , i heard it! i cant believe this is happening to mi! this is damn freaking irritating. i dun ~~wanna~~ have to be reminded of the mistake i made, alrigths. or maybe i am just scared. in whichever case, purleese spare mi of all these crap. thank you very much. ur kindness is very much appreciated.

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11/03/2005 04:08:00 AM

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