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Friday, October 28, 2005

quite a couple of thoughts running across the back of my mind at the present moment.
came home and terence was showing mi the pictures he took wif mr tan. YTSS juX had a farewell parade fer mr tan todae. yes he's going australia fer a master. kinda sad tt he's leaving.
irony: the current principal of mine is retiring ad i DUNCH feel a single thing bt it. kieX. she's a kind lady. perhaps jux not that remarkable as a principal. the way she managed the school. i shant go into details.
anw. back to mr tan. he's realli a great principal. hahaa. can still remember entering his office, writing appeal letter wif rubby - juX to get out of the CCA band. lol. still think it's kinda farni. the way we tried to convince him that guides is a better CCA. ha3. kinda crap. imagine two sec 1 girls entering ya office telling u all these stuff bt their passion fer guides and how much they hate band.. and mr tan still remember it! kinda cool hur. tt' why i can realli feel this unique principal-student bond w/ him. i tink it's amazing and i dun tink it's smthg i wld ever forget in my life =) he doesnt merely remember or care bt students with all As in their report card. and the way he cultivate the school culture and manage the school. splendid! nothing like ny's pseudo cheena culture. or should i jux sae it's cultureless. yes. a culture that doesnt even exist. grr..
he's was one of my greatest motivation back then [other than 5566 anD *ahem u-noe-who] i realli lurf this principal of mine. terence was saying that he went from class to class speaking to them. see wud i meant? u can realli feel his sincerity anD concern fer the student population anD school.
got into melancholy when it suddenly occurred to mi that the building that i spent my secondary school years in will no longer be around in a few years time. a new building will jux spring up. one which i dun haf any memories of. one thing fer sure. i'm gonna miss the school.
was lookin through the school annual anw. saw the new prinicipal. thought he look pretty crappy. hahaa! and jensen ho is still gross as ever. omg. he shoulnt be in this school. i think the school anD my YT memories would haf been perfect, yes PERFECT! w/o him.

here are some of e piX..

here's mr tan wif terence and his friends. he claims that he's tall. i told him it's his hair that makes him look misleadingly [if there's such a word] tall. so much so that he haf to bent. hahaa! and he looks as though he wanna strangle mi
alive.
special note to rubby: u still remember that BB guy? ha3. yes. carrot cake we used to call him. i onli noe it todae tt he's my bro's classmate! like wud a coicidence rite ['',] a small world indeed.

mr tan wif his class. kinda resembles the one 4e6 took wif him 2 years ago. anD mr tan's wearing that pink shirt! depp!e deppie yeppie!~

the parade =)

now u see them.

now u dont ['',] hahaa!

spot the difference! ha3. tt's wud terence got mi to do. kinda boliao = /

a school where i learned to believe in miracles cus they do exist.

where i got my motivation of the dae =) ________________________________________________________________________

you turned away
do u haf any idea how much that hurts?
it slashed across my heart
leaving a cut
a deep one
mercilessly
oh well.. perhaps i shouldnt comment much on that. since i was the one who started this whole crap of avoiding you. mc said u were shy. i think it's otherwise. in any case, i'm quitting. i dun wish to continue animorre.

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10/28/2005 07:03:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

omg. fer a second i tot my nose is gonna fall off. bad weather. bad bad bad bad bad. two daes of flu =( ewwiiieee. awfully awful.
anw. smthg to cheer mi up. guess wud? i finalli managed to convince terence to switch room wif mi till the end of As @ least! hahaa! depp!e deppie yeappie~ da la~ kinda cool hur. fer some reason, i jux find it niCer to actualli mug in his room. and it's damn freaking hard fer mi to sit still in myee room to mug cus there's way too much distractions. i will most prob end up going online, getting vain, making my hair anD stuff..
lol. kinda weird fer a guy to use such a pinky room though. then again, i didnt compel him. he was the one who agreed. i merely talked him into it. and wud more can he ask fer? he got such a lovely room fer a month! *evil chuckle
alrights. this is a actualli redundant entry. jux feel like blogging since i havent been blogging here these few daes =P nites ppl ['',]

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10/26/2005 12:29:00 AM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Sunday, October 23, 2005

i'm so dead. havent been mugging todae. went out wiF mummy. "omg. wud kinda mum is this?" did that cross ya mind? hahaa! so i can read minds! hur hur['',] tt's one potential field fer mi in case i didnt make it fer the As. okie *touch wood. i am juX saying IN CASE. so i suppose it doesnt realli matter =P
anw. went to cut myee fringe damn short. deppie deppie yeappie~ juX another sudden urge of mine to do smthg farni again. =) whee~ had wanted to cut it even shorter. like extremely extremely short. but figured i shouldnt since school's still on fer mi.
oh yes. saw this ger on street todae. was hafing a fierce argument wif her boyfriend over the fone. think he ps her or smthg. anD she reacted as though the world juX collapsed on her. she was practically shouting LAH! like screaming anD announcing to the whole world "oOooo i am hafing an argument wif mYee boyfriend"
"dun bother about mi LAH. dun u tink u really went too far? nvm. i dun nid ya company now. i will go shopping on my own.you can go study all you want.. bla bla bla"
wud's the fucking big deal lah? bitch. yes. her bf shldnt haf ps her or smthg. but did she haf to behave in that manner? obviously he has got morre impt stuff to do lah.. Gers, in whichever case.. dun ever cling onto ya bf like some parasites. it's freaking irritating. juX leave him some room to do wudever he likes lah. he's ya boyfriend, not ya shadow. he doesnt have the obligation to stay by ya side every second! oh god. i wish i could knock some sense into her. i dun like the way she took things fer granted. i dun get it. how could someone actualli be so unreasonable? grr...
oh well, wudever. she can do wudever she likes. *roll eyes* i juX pity hEr boi.
alrights. getting back to myee mugging business. my top priority at the present moment. oOooo i jux luRf mYee lecture notes tys so much!

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10/23/2005 09:10:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Saturday, October 22, 2005

mpoeisr.. if u are cracking ya brain figuring out this word. DUN even BOTHER . it's juX smthg that has lost it's significance perhaps. smthg whiCh i am still holding on to foolishly. hahaa! wudever. am getting out of here. grrr....

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10/22/2005 08:38:00 PM

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

It would appear that you are experiencing one problem after another. When one problem is resolved, another seems to immediately take its place. It could well be that you are trying too desperately to evade or to escape from your present situation and it is 'you' that is causing the problems to manifest themselves. You need to slow down a little.
oh god. this is bad bad bad bad bad! this had better not be true. *praying hard

You are a leader and possibly at this time in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

hahaa! ARE YOU SURE? the last thing i'm going to be now is a leader. cant even cope w/ myee life now! nuts.

You are a demanding egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. This attitude makes people feel somewhat inadequate when in your company and so it is no wonder that at times you feel alone and unwanted.
hmm.. smthg fer mi to ponder over fer the dae. perhaps i realli am. but oh well..

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

hahaa! stressed. tt's true. but who's not?

Being afraid that you may be prevented from achieving your hopes and dreams is making you anxious and nervous. As a dreamer your ideas can at times move into the realm of fantasy and you could be following that so called illusive dream.

omg! this is the last thing that i need to hear at the present moment! *shriek

btw. this was the order i chose the colors of myee cube.

yellow black blue green red pink brown grey.

http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/index.cfm

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10/15/2005 11:33:00 AM

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Friday, October 14, 2005

because of you.

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10/14/2005 03:18:00 PM

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

MEIXI!! alrights. i meant meryl. here's wuD i promised i will do.

fer the (n+10) time, purleese do nat cough as though u haf got some lung disease=P haha!

deppie depp!e yeppie~ haagen dazs Fondue was good ['',] heavenly. satisfaction. *thumbs up. [ha! was telling the gErs that fondue's supposed to be pronounced wiF a seductive tone. juX that the waiters there aint realli those that one wld wanna seduce exactly. haa! kie. getting crappy agn =P] in any way, was a perfect date wif the gErs=) whee~ ha3. speaking of waiters, i havent seen myee cuTe waiter around @ Terra fer ages!! hmm..

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10/13/2005 11:17:00 PM

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

like it anot. tomorrow will be here. in less than 3 hrs. the last day of school. i hate to be reminded. then again.. it will still be here ultimately. obviously.
yes. months ago i cant wait fer tomorrow to come. weeks ago we were still toking bt it. now that it's gonna be here soon, i'm actualli hafing mixed feelings bt it.

yes. no doubt. i still cant wait to leave this school. i still dislike it. i dislike it's cheena yet cultureless envt. i detest the way the whole damn system works. it's juX so nat flexible. damn freaking rigid. i hate the fact that the whole school's juX so segregated. it juX feels not bonded at all.

but then again. i aint sure it's everithing tt i hate. or am ready to let go.

it jux came to dawn upon mi tt tmr will be the end to everything. a gigantic fullstop .

"last day" alwix seems to haf its significance. then again, we ask ourselves. a few years down the road, is it still gonna be the case? will we even bother to walk up to some long lost claasmates or even friends to say a hi?

i dunnoe. but i find that realli disturbing. worse still. when the two of you are already meeting each other in the eyes. and one of you jux decided to look away or tok to the person besides you, pretending that you dint actualli noe that the person walked past you. sad. but such things do happen.

i simply lurf that great feeling of running into ppl u havent seen fer ages on streets. catching up wif them and knowing tt they are doing fine. isnt that great? and its' not tt hard to achieve that either right?
it's never easy to part.
We had something to learn
Now it's time for the wheel to turn
Grains of sand, one by one
Before you know it, all gone
We awoke from our dream
Things are not always what they seem
Memories linger on

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dun cry cus it's over
smile cus it happened

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10/11/2005 09:36:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-