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Friday, August 12, 2005

alrights.. darz!! ha3.. da la~~ i'm blogging again=D
hmm.. let mi see.. i haf so mach to blog bt tt i haf no idea where to start.. see see.. da conseQuenCes oF bein lazy.. ha3
hmm.. saw him @ the bus-stop ytD.. yes.. goD deCides to let mi run into him juX bEfore i gO home...hOw niCee huh.. i lurf runnig into him anD stuff.. then again i knOw myself.. i think and stone alot each time i run into him.. i juX dun wan to find mYself sinking deeper.. i could haf simplified things bY juX saying a hi.. juX a simple hi.. sO wuD's stopping mi? Y do i haf to sCrew things up? h3llo? wuD's da pRoblem wiF mi? Y cant i juX bRin mYself to behave nOrmalli.. juX like the way i wld sae hi tO others? clearly the misunderstanding is juX gonna deepen lah~ for heaven sake.. miss chong chun ying.. would u stop rolling ya eyes anD giving him tt dumb " omg.. why run into you oF all ppl" look when u so happen to run into him? stop all ya nOnsense lo~ mC was like tellin mi he did wave mi goodbYe on the bus.. but then again.. i still think it was kinda impossible lo~~ as in yup.. juX nOt his style oF dOing things.. i still believe tt he's mOst pRob wavin to his fren who's behind mi oR smthg.. oh well.. Y am i thinkin bt this? does it even concern mi? ~~it dOesn't even mattEr..~~
alright.. i hate to admit.. bUt everithing bt him still matters alot to mi aCtualli.. a simple bye.. if he realli did wave mi gdbye.. it meant alot to mi aCtualli.. tO mi..it meant tt the unspoken misunderstanding we had is cleared.. oR rather.. this is wuD i haf been i hOping fOr.. anD tt he mOst pRob didnt suspect anithing after reading the sms... then we can still b frens @ least.. whiCh's somehOw a p3rfect situation.. this is the veri minimum i asked for actualli.. maybe it isnt a bad thing he nOes.. tt's wuD mC tOld mi.. sO is it oR is it nOt? i hadnt had a single idea... then again.. wuDever it isu neva nOe wuD guYs aRe thinking.. i shant read too much into things.. after all.. we are a mere 18 daes away fRom pRelims anD 79 fRom As..
okie.. enuff oF him.. nOw mYee greatest conern..gRanny.. things arent lookin tOo good aCtualli.. her daes aRe numbEred.. yep.. i hate to be alone these daes.. it juX makes mi think mOre.. i can nO longer sTay optimistiC.. i juX cant bear the tot oF nOt hafin gRanny bY mY siDe.. eaCh time i visit hEr.. hEr condition juX seems to wORsen.. i juX haf to fight mYee tears.. i nOe she's wOrried bt us anD all.. yet she cant express hErself.. she dOesnt even haf the energy tO tok.. can u imagine hOw bad things aRe? went tO CGH on weD to visit hEr.. she was hafin so muCh difficultiEs bReathing then.. hEr kidneys aRe failing.. i called her.. all tt she could do was to half open her puny eyes anD look @ mi.. she's so swelled up tt her wRinkles seems to "disappeaR".. it juX huRt terribly to see hEr in tt sTate.. euthanasia came to miee mind time anD again..
tO whOever's gOnna take gRanny away fRom mi.. dun do this to hEr.. she dOesnt even deserve this alright.. she's old.. please do nOt tortuRe her like this.. either u end hEr life wiF nO pain.. oR let hEr enjOy hEr remaining daes @ least..
well.. we all knew granny's waiting fOr him aCtualli.. yep.. unCle.. i dunnOe wuD on earth is stopping him fRom cumin.. though granny did nOt sae anithing bt him.. i knew she's hanging on fOr the sake of him.. despite being realli veri ill.. perhaps tt slutty biTchy wiFe oF his [unfOrtunately.. but yes i do haf a BRAINLESS HEARTLESS EVIL aunt liddat.. though we dun haf any blood relation] is threatening him oR smthg.. tt she will commit suicide wiF their childRen iF he ever visit gRanny? i dunnOe.. anD i dun wish tO nOe.. cant even be bothered.. iF it wasnt gRanny's last infulfiled dReam to see him.. ^%$&#$&^. wuD a fuCkin ass.. alrights.. family matters.. adult affairs over heRe... dunnOe muCh detail either.. jux knew tt granny hasnt been on gooD terms wiF tt slut all along.. anD nOw tt slut is stopping mYee unCle fRom visiting granny oR smthg. bitCh. i mean.. h3llo? cant she juX forget bt the whOle thing? GRANNY IS ALREADY ON THE VERGE OF HER DEATH LAH.. wtf... i wish i could stRangle her anD knOck some sense into hEr la.. i mean.. %#&^%*$&.. oh well.. i jux cant contRol mYself.. but i wld neva forgive her for wuD she did to gRanny.. i juX dun wanna see gRanny leave this wOrld wiF reGrets.. eugh~ wuDever.. cant be bOthered wiF childish adults like hEr..m juX gonna do wuD it takes to make myee gRanny happy fOr hEr remaining daes... tt's the veri least i cld do.. i juX wanna spend all the time i can spare wiF mYeee gRanny.. fOr the sake oF gRanny.. i shall stay happy anD all.. shall take good caRe oF mYself.. so tt she has one thing less to worri bt.. i cant change the faCt she's leaving.. but i can make hEr leave wiF a smile on hEr faCe @ least.. i shall study haRd fOr mYee As anD make hEr pRoud oF mi.. i shall bE gRanny's achievement.. anD i will make suRe i reach there..
*sigh.. let mi blog bt some farni oR happy stuff now... realised mYee enTry sounded sad so far.. hmm.. *thinkin haRd
ha3.. yep.. there's this intertwining jOke vanniE tOld mi anD jiE few daes ago.. ha3.. intEresting language some ppl haF.. i was laughing sO haRd.. intertwine twine twine twineeeeeee.. lol... spEaking bt mYee laughter.. i tink it's gEtting wOrse.. omg.. tink i gOt hit bY some bug again.. the same one tt attaCked mi baCk in YTSS.. ha3.. when i juX wldnt sTop laughing @ everithing.. i juX cant help thinkin far anD laugh..
oh! anw, did i mention tt i lost mYee correCtion fluid? yes.. again.. this is like the nth time i m losing it.. it's a big thing esp fOr ppl like mi.. the pRobability oF mi wRiting a wRong charaCter oR smthg is way to high.. anD i hate cancellation.. ha3.. beta get it replaCed soon.. bEfore i go bonkers.. i sEriously cant stand cancelling.. it's way too untidy.. i juX cldnt stand the sight of a line cRossing over mYee faulty sentenCe ~~like this~~ ... then again.. i am juX too lazy to gEt one... ha3..
oh yep!! mummy's gReat! *cheeriOs ha3.. she bought sTrawberries fOr mi.. BIG NICE JUICY SWEET ones.. ha3.. luRf hEr.. aLwiX buYing stuff tO kip mi gOing.. mugging w/o food is haRd anD terrible+hOrrible+incOrrigible+vegetable+etc-ble.. ha3.. alrights.. this isnt farni..
went mugging wiF xixi on sun.. had loads oF fun wiF hEr.. juX luRf miee cuTe lil sweetie.. ha3.. was sitting on this ledge.. hafing ouR dinner anD chatting.. simple anD niCee.. away fRom all the compliCations in life.. can realli tok bt almOst everithing under the sun wiF this ger.. she's simply gReat! but she did smthg terrible tOdae [lol.. pOinting finger @ xixi] she went to sms him " i love you" wiF mYee fone.. omg. i was almOst shoCked to death.. didnt expect hEr to realli msg him.. ha3.. but wasnt mad wiF her lah.. as in she did tt onli cus i said he wldnt believe.. and wuD's mOre i was the one whO started playing wiF hEr fone anD msging "hEr guy" nonsense.. ha3.. and yes! we were playing catching in mac.. was chasing after her all the way out oF mac.. juX to snatch her fone fRom her.. ha3.. childish.. tt wOrd muX haf cRossed ya mind.. ha3.. guEss it's all the mugging tt made us loSe ouR sanity.. cant realli blame us rith.. lol..

wahaha.. suddenly remb smthg tt happened to darz.. a hOrrendous experience fOr her.. it muX haf been.. we were makin fun oF hEr cup siZe.. ha3.. darz!! look @ this!! a niCe B fOr ya! ha3... oOps! she's gOnna sTrangle mi anitime nOw.. ha3.. mYee cuTe darz.. was like annOuncing tO the whOle canteen hEr boobs siZe.. haha.. cant realli remb the details.. of hOw we gOt to tt tOpic.. but aniway.. we had a good time laughing.. all the way till biO lessons.. darz was blushing.. ha3.. anD yep.. darz haf gOt a pOint there.... let mi QUOTE her again.. ha3.. we do it fOr ouRselves, nOt others..
let mi see wud i missed out.. hmm.. aCtualli nOthing muCh bt mYee mundane life.. [actualli.. i'm juX way too lazy to recall.. oOps..]

argh~ anw.. tOkin bt life.. i realli hate this kinda routine.. i cant wait fOr 24 nOv to cum.. sO tt i can biD farewell to this sChool.. yes this SCHOOL.. and yes.. let mi emphasize again.. it's puRely the sChool.. nOt anithing else kie.. aCtualli.. i think i wld miss all the mugging times.. w/ mYee sweeties.. tt's smthg we pRobably wld neva haf a chanCe to do tgt agn..
yup yup.. suddenly remember.. siming smsed mi tt dae! anD guEss wuD? she was telling mi tt kelly.. as in kelly fRom Project Superstar.. [lol... i haf nO idea who she is aCt. cus i dun catch tt show..] was fRom YT!! ha3.. nOt tt i am happy cus i came from the same sChool as some celebrity.. oR rather celeb-to-be.. [we were fRom the same pri sch too anw] but mOre impOrtantly.. cus she's fRom YT.. yep.. juX luRf tt sChool to bits.. a mEre neighbOurhOod sChool yet it's a miRacle to mi.. yep... everithing bt tt sChool.. i simply luRf it! ha3.. am gOing baCk wiF siming joanne etC.. whee~~ lookin fOrward to it.. fOnd memOries it bRought.. sometimes i juX cant help reminiscing the past.. it's nOt a bad thing aCtualli.. to stop @ times anD look baCk @ ya life.. sometimes ppl aRe moving @ suCh gReat speed.. they negleCt little yet significanCe details.. tt's hOw families todae becum so disintegrated isnt it? oh my.. y am i getting into gp stuff?
anw.. i dun mind ppl being AA.. in faCt i luRf attention seeking ppl.. cus @ least they aRe being themselves.. in their mOst comfy sTae.. nOt aCting demuRe oR smthg.. but then it's all abt limits.. some ppl aRe juX overdOing it.. puRleeesssee.. fOr goodness sake.. dun tuRn uRself intO a chRistams tRee.. it nOt veri niCee u nOe..
anw.. watched cRush pRoduCtion.. niCee.. a gReat refleCtion oF ppl wif alternative lifesTyles.. *thumbs up
it neva occured to mi tt way.. wuD jonathan said neva cRossed mYee mind.. think i m juX bEing plain selfish @ times.. anD it's tt bad tt i dun even realise it @ times..
anw.. baCk to the issue bt kelly.. here's her pRofile..
http://superstar.channelu.com.sg/project/female08.htm ppl out there! vOte fOr hEr kie kie... she juX haf gOtta win.. she's YT's gem!! =D

niTes ppl.. hitting mYee pillow soon.. sweetie dReams to all~ bE suRe to miss mi=P

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8/12/2005 11:46:00 PM

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