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Sunday, July 31, 2005

ha3.. darz gave mi her so-calleD <3 CARROT... ha3.. juX cant help laughing.. she's fOrever tt farni.. luRf her~~ =D

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7/31/2005 12:06:00 AM

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Saturday, July 30, 2005

this qn is still stuCked up in miee head..i havent got the answer after two daes.. wuD if he weRe to leave the wOrld? juX like the way the ger did? i cant imagine.. i haf nO energy to think bt it either.. things juX seems tO worsen each dae...

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7/30/2005 11:58:00 PM

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Friday, July 29, 2005

unpRediCtable... fRagile... yes.. tt's life...

1st was wiF gRanny.. juX when we weRe expEcting gRanny to recover anD getting all the admin stuff done to tRansfer gRanny to Saint Andrew hOspital fOr her physiotherapy... hEr stomach deCided to bleed internalli.. anD she has tO be admitted to ICU tt dae... [ glad tt @ least her condition's stbilised nOw =) ]
anD neXt was the j1 ger whO juX passed away... juX a few daes agO.. she's all well takin e same bus as mi.. juX less than a metRe away.. anD nOw.. she's so far away fRom all oF us.. she left us all.. i juX cant help feeling sad fOr her.. despite the faCt tt i dun realli nOe her..
a big question maRk: whEre did she gO??
ken's giRlfRienD oR gOing-to-be [i haF nO idea whiCh].. anw.. she passed away.. anD she's mErely 17.. can u imagine the long-neva-ending list oF things she haf yet to do? i mean.. 17.. anD she juX died liddat.. she haf a lot in life whiCh she have yet to haf a taste of.. whiCh she has yet to experienCe.. anD she juX left all the sudden.. anD cause: unknOwn. is this faiR to her? [okie.. i haf no rigths to aCtualli quEstion the fate gOd has given her.. oR rather her destiny] i cant imagine the pain her parents anD frienDs aRe feeling.. it muX haf been so unbearable.. anD wuD's mine as compared to theirs? nOthing!
speakin bt tt... saw ken.. he wasnt realli as tRaumatised as i expect him to be.. guys.. how disappointing.. he's still like tokin to his friend bt wuD to eat oR *wuDever.. nOt tt i am evil anD all.. nOt tt i wan to see him sad.. cRy oR wuDever either.. but shldnt he be feelin sad? i mean his giRlfrienD passed away! hello? fuCk. it wld be wOrse off iF it's going-to-be.. as in shldnt he be regRettin nOt tellin her hOw muCh she meant to him? how muCh he wanted to be tgt wiF her anD stuff liddat? was quite tuRned off wiF his reaCtion towaRds this inCident.. feelin injuStiCe fOr the ger.. kie.. i am in nO poSition to interfere hOw he shld be behaving aCtually.. i shant comment ani fuRther then.. shall kip it all to mYself..

her death seems tO haf some kinDa impaCt on mi.. in one way oR anOther.. it makes mi ponDer.. anD trIggered off mYee thoughts.. thoughts came flooding in the whole dae...
while dOing biOlogy mCQs pRelim... i was thinking.. where dOes the gate between life anD death leads tO?? where did the ger gO... nOw tt she passed away? can she still see her loved ones fRom where she is? is she happiEr? oR did she died wiF regRets? wiF regRets nOt sTarting wiF ken.. despite the faCt tt they bOth haf an affinity fOr each other..

u neva nOe when is the last time u will be seeing toking playing someone.. smthg can juX happen uneXpectedly.. w/o any warning anD u juX lose the person.. anD fOrever.. u will be divided anD separated by tt mere line.. between life anD death..

i am realli thankful.. tt i m @ least able to bReathe.. taking in o2 anD giving ouT co2.. a miRaculously simple aCtion.. tt has so muCh powEr in determining ouR ability to do things in life... all the sudden.. the thought oF juX being able to walk run jump eat study makes mi feel so blessed...

went tO seCret hiDeout wiF darz.. bRought van.. wang anD chOo along.. simply luRfs it there.. tranquil.. it's serenity juX sets mi thinking.. i juX luRf it this way.. simple anD niCee... closing mYee eYes.. listening tO everY details oF sounD aRd.. swinging ouR legs.. anD the BEST paRt oF all.. nOeing tt all miee sweeties aRe juX neXt tO mi=)) it's juX simply sO heaven-ly.. wuD mOre can i ask fOr?

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7/29/2005 11:55:00 PM

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Monday, July 25, 2005

kie.. am feeling better tOdae.. muCh better.. in a better sTate oF minD @ least..
i founD out this seCret abouT mY mummy anD daddy ytD.. tt i wasnt suppOsed tO noe obviously.. unintentionalli.. sadly.. anD wuDever.. yup.. i founD out.. anD i found it sO damn haRd to accept it ytD.. went into depRession..
sometimes.. i realli feel tt i am veri sheltered anD all.. i aint anithing like jie.. she's realli veri sTrong.. despiTe her puny siZe anD all.. theRe's lotsa things whiCh she haF tO go thRough.. whiCh i neva haf tO... so why am i gRumbling? but anw.. jie's right.. we may nOt be able tO change the way things aRe.. but we haf cOntRol over the way we look @ things.. iF we chOose tO live in misery anD all.. tt's an addtional pRoblem on top oF wuD u R faCing.. besides.. u will be makin things wOrse foR ppl aRd you.. iF u chOose to live happily.. u haf one pRoblem less to faCe.. sometimes... it';s really juX a matter oF perspeCtive.. i tOt wuD she said made sense.. anD da la~~ i bRoke fRee anD took a whOle new pErspeCtive..
wenT joggin wiF darz todae.. was fun anD all =D all the sudden we remb tt it has been ages sinCe we bOth jog tgt.. ha3.. time flies.. the last time we jogged tgt.. she still wasnt as cheerful as she is nOw.. tRoubled anD stuff.. oh ya! was tellin darz bt gRanny...anD tot she haf a pOint there tOo..she was like tellin mi we all haf to leave this wOrld one dae.. like it anot.. wuD matters mOst is whether anot we haf made a impact on the ppp aRd us.. maybe granny has walked her bit oF life??
life's full oF dilemmas.. on one hand i wished tt gRanny will realli live long.. long enuff to see mi gRaduate fRom a pestigious uni.. anD even to see mi getting married [ie iF i thought it thRough anD deCided to get marrieD one dae]... BUT then again.. i tot tt's kinDa selfish oF mi... was sitting by her bed ytd.. we aRe enjOying her pResence @ the expense oF her sufferings.. maYbe it would be a gReat relief for her to leave this wOrld..
but then again.. i juX cldnt bear to part wiF her..
i was tellin darz hOw i wldnt want to live beyond 75.. anD she was like saying.. "see.. even you dun wan to live till tt age.. uR granny might nOt want to either".. tt's something tt neva realli cRossed mYee mind befOre..
anw.. darz's realli blessed.. she has all her grandparents by hEr siDe...
oh ya! fOrmed a "communist" gRoup oF fRiends duRing PE lessons tOdae.. ha3,.. yepss... pRetty cool huh... getting tO knOw new ppl anD all... tt maDe mYee dae =))

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7/25/2005 05:20:00 PM

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

smthg's wRong wiF gRanny... sEriously.. she's nOt the cheerful hEr todae.. a 180 degRee change fRom tt dae.. she's no longer tOkin sense.. she juX mumbles to herself.. as though she lives in a world of her own.. she didnt interaCt wiF mi.. it's juX a mere " haf u eaten?" from her.. anD tt's it.. she didnt hOld my hand like she used to.. she didnt touch myee face like she used to.. all things tt she used to do.. she nO longer dOes it... i held her hand.. she did not hold it.. it's juX wobbly... her appetite isnt as good either.. she juX refused tO eat.. she spit out everithing she ate.. yes.. spit.. nOt threw up.. guess it's all e dOsage oF medicine tt's makin her liddat... oR rather this is wuD i chOse to believe in... she's trying to tell mi smthg... but i couldnt catch it.. her voice's juX so faint now... i sat beside her bed.. accompanying her... watching her chest going up anD dOwn... it's gReat to see her still bReathing @ least...

*sigh.. aint realli in the mood of bloggin.. shall update in due course..

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7/24/2005 08:06:00 PM

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Saturday, July 23, 2005

爱的奇迹

歌手:typhoon&183 club&la 专辑:爱的奇迹 (乔杰立巨

谁能够明白我们该去的终点
虽然一路上总有惊有险
跨过彩虹那一边不说

后悔黄昏的海岸线
看不到遗憾
要记得这一个夏天
有你陪我在身边受伤也是种锻炼
一句话一双手一片天

就算有多遥远
爱能让我勇敢走向前
跨越了地和天
汗水划破悲伤和喜悦
你一定看的见

白云一片片飘过不需留恋
我心中存在的一个乐园
就在前方那一片碧海蓝天
黄昏的海岸线看不到遗憾
这属于我们的画面
有你陪我在身边受伤也是种锻炼
一句话一双手一片天

就算有多遥远
爱能让我勇敢走向前
跨越了地和天
汗水划破悲伤和喜悦
你一定看的见

数不尽的流星飞过我们许下同一个心愿
走过荆棘和烈焰不管距离和时间
一句话一双手一片天

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7/23/2005 11:05:00 PM

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CCY HON, dont let this start again! i know you read, please get this into your head, there's no much time for you to be affected anymore.. we have only 6 weeks and three full subjects of crap to get into our brains. so stop thinking about you-know-who and get down to studying. just for these 6 weeks can? after these 6 weeks, everything's going to be okay, this time will heal all your wounds. moreover, A A A is what we want from this two years, not just a mere infactuation! so focus and concentrate on studing first can? finish off this long war with our well deserved As, we're going to do it!

was reading daRz's bloggie..she has been tRying reeaal haRd tO get mi ouT oF the pit.. she sTretched ouT her hanDs anD pulled realli haRd.. tO get mi out.. heR wOrds aRe right nOw chuRning in mYee head..

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perhaps it's time to look @ things fRom a new pErspeCtive.. it's gOnna huRt.. yes.. but i cant carry on like this..
dar's right.. he's nOt gonna cRy fOr mi oR wuDever iF i were tO sCrew up mYee A's.. i will be juX left all aone tO faCe the A's nXt yeaR..anD retaking the papers.. needless tO sae.. it's gOnna be a long painful pRocess.. dO i realli want tO enD up in suCh pathetiC state? tt's an absolute NO .. being stuCk @ somewhere when everyone else R movin" on to the neXt chapter oF their life.. anD wOrse still... hafin tO faCe the disappOinted look on mummy.. daddy anD everyone else's faCe... i haf cum this faR.. gone thru" mYee O's anD stuff.. am i gonna give it up @ this cRitical moment?
a few years dOwn the rOad.. i may nOt even remb him.. sO y am i gettin sO *wuDever over him nOw? cRushes aRe meant tO be smthg happy.. smthg tO enjOy ..sO iF it huRts sO muCh... wuD's the pOint oF carrying on? aFter all.. i knOw myself the best.. isnt it sO? i aint sOmeone whO's realli intO r/s.. nOt someone whO can realli commit.. sO aint things beta off this way?

Wake up!! faCe it!! it's time tO start peaking!! anD stop dReaming!! mug mug mug!! u pRomised mummy.. anD u aint suppOsed tO bReak this pRomise!! nO way is she gonna fOrgive you fOr sCrewing up ya A's!!

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7/23/2005 09:30:00 PM

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haD a dReam ytd.. wasnt a good one.. saw him anD this othEr shOrt-haiRed gEr tgt.. sitting on a benCh.. anD this smile on hiS faCe [w/ whang calls it silly].. anD i turned anD walked awaY..

i realli darent think.. wuD if this wasnt a dReam.. wuD if all these were real? i haf nO idea.. realli.. i dun.. tt's y i chOse to leave it hanging.. i dun wanna think bt it.. i'm sCared to face it..

hOw did things ever enD up this way? hOw hOw hOw??? it has neva been sO painful bEfOre... neva.. somehOw oR other.. i used to be able tO use mYee cRushes as mYee pillar oF sTrength.. but nO moRe.. i am tRapped.. nOw..

alrights.. 6 weeks tO pRelims anD a mEre 12 weeks away fRom A's anD i m still thinkin" bt suCh stuff...

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7/23/2005 08:47:00 PM

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

toDae's pResentation maRks the enD oF OCIP..
a beautiful enDing ['',]..
leavin sweet memOries in mYee heart..
iF onli eveRithing has suCh peRfeCt enDings...
then agn.. it's a mEre "iF onli"..
bOttomline... it will neva cum tRue...
some things aRe juX neva meant to happen i guess ..

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7/20/2005 09:09:00 PM

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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

ha3.. juX baCk fRom hOspital.. felt as though a load has been lifteD off mi.. feeling damn gReat nOw.. tO see gRanny well agn.. glaD tO feel tt familiar hand hOldin mi agn.. givin mi some kinDa assuRanCe.. gReat tO see hEr smiling @ mi agn.. gReat tO hear her tOkin to mi agn.. gReat tO sTroke her hair.. gReat tO be able tO stay bY her siDe anD haf hEr wiF mi ['',]
ha3.. she did it! gRanny's realli a speCial giFt god has blessed mi wiF.. she's realli a miRacle.. she's intErestingly cuTe.. after hEr op.. she was like movin hEr legs [she aint supposEd tO anw..] .. we weRe all sO damn shoCked tt she aCtualli had the sTrength to bReak free fRom the bOard her leg was tied tO.. when we tOld her she was suppOsed to kip hEr legs sTraight.. she juX tOld us this " yup.. i noe.. i was juX tRying ouT.. tO see iF i am able tO move mYee legs".. yep.. she's cool.. isnt she?she was also pRetty cool.. despiTe knOwing tt she has tO undergo an op..
gRanny neva fails tO make mi smiLe wiF all these cuTe little aCtions oF hErs.. somehOw.. she aLwiX managed tO liven up the atmOsphEre..
gRanny's amazingly sTrong.. 97 yrs old.. anD she has gOt no high blood pRessure.. no high cholesterol.. etC.. yep.. anD tt's mYee gRanny!~!~ yaypee~~ anD right after an op.. when mOst ppl will bE feelin sO weak all over.. she still haf gOt the appetite to eat.. dOesnt look pale.. anD still haF the enErgy tO chat wiF us =))
gReat aunt's also feeling beTa anD all..
*cheeriOs everithing's baCk to nOrmal agn..
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tO mYee sweetiEs..
thX fOr all ya cOncern all this whiLe.. thX fOr being thEre fOr mi.. realli glaD tO haf known you ppl.. luRf ya all ['',] thX for eveRithing!!
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kie.. let mi blog a little about ytD.. wasnt realli in da mooD tO do so ytD..
haD OCIP pReasentation rehearsal.. kinDa miss thOse daes baCk in china.. esp when theY plaYed [yin wei ai] anD [shou hou] bYee 5566.. omg,, thOse memOries juX kip flashing in mYee minD.. i miss xinhui.. i miss the kiDs.. esp xiaOwen [mYee cute lil sweetheart] .. i miss da shen's cooking.. i miss thOse daes when darling and i were staying up late @ nite chattin bt everithing.. munching on food.. planning lessons fOr nuRsery kiDs.. etC.. i miss everithing!!

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7/19/2005 10:25:00 PM

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Monday, July 18, 2005

mYee heart is aChing right nOw..
gOt home anD this is wuD i gOt frm teRenCe..
gRanny anD gReat aunt aRe bOth in hOspital.. gRanny fell.. anD tink aunt wenT tO help hEr up.. anD fell tgt.. anD think one oF gRanny's bOnes bRoke oR cRacked.. anD right nOw.. all i could do was tO wait fO rmummy tO cum home...
sO this eXplains the baD feeling i was hafing all this while.. call it bond oR this speCial affinity we shaRe.. i could somehow sense.. whenever smthg happen to gRanny...
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gRanny.. iF u coulD hear this..u reAlli meant alot tO mi.. nOthing muX happen tO you.. i realli hOpe u will live on sTrongly.. tO the dae i gRaduate fRom uni.. tO the dae i gEt maRRried.. i realli wan u tO be theRe.. fOr mi.. tO watCh mi.. i wanna see the smiLe on youR faCe.. it realli huRts.. whenever smthg happen tO you.. all that i want anD need is juX u bY my siDe.. living happily.. right nOw.. i realli wish fOr juX a simple hug fRom you.. tt meant evertthing tO mi.. like hOw you used tO hug mi.. whenever i visit you..
loving you alwix.. gRanny..

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7/18/2005 08:04:00 PM

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

*cheerios

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7/17/2005 11:51:00 PM

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the thRee *bestiEs.. lOvin" mYee little sweetiEs ['',] +hugX

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7/17/2005 11:34:00 PM

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the thRee bestiEs.. lOvin" it ['',]

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7/17/2005 01:53:00 AM

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ha3.. look @ sweetiE chaR's haiR.. i haF cRedit in makin it sO niCee anD sweet kie.. wahaha ['',]

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7/17/2005 01:51:00 AM

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niCee.. simple;; anD sweet ['',] *hugX

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7/17/2005 01:49:00 AM

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i juX wanna run awaY anD bReak fRee fRom eveRithing...

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7/17/2005 12:58:00 AM

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deAr ruB.. iF you aRe readin this.. i wan DAn bRown's The Da Vinci Code.. hahaX.. luRf ya mOst=) *mwaCkiEs

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7/17/2005 12:53:00 AM

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Wednesday, July 13, 2005

slapping dOesnt help..
sO a harsher one...
W.O.R.D.S
mYee wOrds muX haf realli huRt...
darz's cRying sO bitterly..
this is like the seCond time in a row i seen hEr in teaRs..
it muX haf been damn awful fOr hEr..
oh goD...
it didnt feel gooD..

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anw.. haD tuition wiF jia cheng todae.. he luRfs tellin mi sTories.. anD his smile's cuTe when he realised he maDe a mistake in his tenses again..he's pRetty okie lah.. but haf gotta nOe him beta lo~~ finalli felt the sense oF responsiblility tOwaRds him.. hOpe i can realli help impRove his gRade.. was kinDa stRess.. wiF his mummi aRd though... oh ya.. her mummi's kinDa kiasu... she has gOt a gigantiC pile oF assessment lah.. p3.. i dun even remember hafin this load oF woRk baCk when i was young.. bottomline.. feelin kinda guilty.. even a pri 3 kiD is wOrkin this haRd.. anD mi? well.. tink i shant comment.. ha3.. anw.. his mummi's damn cuTe.. insist on mi hafin some fRuits.. niCee though.. it quenCh mYee thiRst=)) tOking was neva tt haRd fOr mi.. ha3.. makes mi wOnder how leCturers can gO on anD on w/O feelin tt dRyness in theiR thRoat.. amazeD..

came home anD mummY was tellin mi bt andy.. oh goD.. he's founD himself a new joB and is quittin.. argh.. nO mOre eYe-candy.. he' so cuTe lah.. *sigh

nvm.. lookin fOrwaRd to the wkenD.. may be sTayin over @ mwaChz's plaCe.. tt's gonna be so cool.. anD meeting up wiF mYee sweeties anD goin ECP.. ha3.. tt shall make the rest oF mYee wk a beta one.. smile ['',] tO jie in paRticualr: sTay happY =D things aRe gonna be alright anD believe tt effOrts do paY off..

tO van: abunehneh abunehneh.. wahaha..... kie.. sTop mYee nonsense.. shall get to mYee org chem rv II anD III.. pRay haRd i dun fall aslp..

nites ppl.. luRf ya all ['',]

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7/13/2005 10:21:00 PM

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

all da sudden.. smthg @t saiD popped up in mYee head.. though like wuD van saiD.. it's sO iRonic tt smthg like this cums frm suCh a slaCker.. but anw.. hEre's wuD he saiD..

look far..

dun look @ all tt u R gg thRu @ the mOment..

enjOy nOw..

anD u will nOt gEt to enjOy the enD...

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7/12/2005 11:15:00 PM

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Monday, July 11, 2005

wuD am i tO dO wiF him?
givin" up is the onli way ouT i guEss...
he's juX gOnna finD out anw..
anD things will bE baCk to tt like beFore.. again...

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7/11/2005 07:56:00 PM

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i'm bOmbarded wif fallaCies anD cOmpleXity oF life...
BUT i am juX gonna stanD sTrong anD faCe it..
i juX cant bE bOthered..

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7/11/2005 07:52:00 PM

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Saturday, July 09, 2005

was watChing the wedding singer earlier on.. niCee.. the stOryline's so sweet.. luRf it.. it's about this guY Robbie Hart who's stood up by his fiancee Linda anD he came to nOe Julia... a waitress @ the wedding reCeptions where he performs.. julia's getting married.. to a wealthy wall street bRoker.. Glenn.. but she aint happy.. anD Robbie happens to finD out tt glenn dun realli loves julia....
kinda refleCtive of life todae.. full oF COMPLICATIONS... makin mi tiRed anD all..

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anw.. am lovin Fs bulletin mOre.. it's kinda interestin aCtualli..

omg.. this sounds so damn sCary.. arrgh~~ they posted this cus of the serial killer in Louisiana. dun tink i dare to walk home alone late @ nite now.. omg omg omg.. wuD am i to do.. kie.. i noe.. this is singapore and i am imagining too muCh..

Tip from police:
1.The elbow is the strongest point on your body.If you are close enough to use it, do!

2. If a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse,
DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM.
Toss it away from you....
chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you
and he will go for the wallet or purse
RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!

3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car:
Kick out the back tail lights
and stick your arm out the hole
and start waving like crazy.
The driver won't see you but everybody else will.
This has saved lives.

4. Women have a tendency to get into their car after shopping, eating,working, etc.,
and just sit (doing their check book, or making a list,etc.)
DON'T DO THIS!
The predator will be watching you,
and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side,
put a gun to your head,and tell you where to go.
AS SOON AS YOU GET INTO YOUR CAR,
LOCK THE DOORS AND LEAVE

5. A Few Notes About Getting Into Your Car In a Parking Lot, or Parking Garage:
A. Be aware look around you; look into your car, at the passenger side floor, and in the back seat. (And check out under the car as you approach.)
B. If you're parked next to a big van you should enter your car from the passenger door.Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.
C. Look at the car parked on the driver's side of your vehicle and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out.
IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY (And better paranoid than dead.)

6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs.
(Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot).

7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN.The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times;And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ, RUN

8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic:
STOP IT
It may get you raped, or killed.
Ted Bundy, the serial killer,
was a good-looking, well educated man,
who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women?
He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked "for help" into hisvehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.

Someone just told me that her friend heard a crying baby on her porch the night before last,
and she called the police
because it was late
and she thought it was weird.
The police told her "Whatever you do, DO NOT open the door."
The lady then said that it sounded like the baby had crawled near awindow,
and she was worried that it would crawl to the street and get run over.
The policeman said, "We already have a unit on the way, whatever you do,
DO NOT open the door."
He told her that they think a serial killer has a baby cry recorder
and uses it to coax women out of their homes
thinking that someone dropped off a baby.
He said they have not verified it,
but have had several calls by women
saying that they heard baby cries outside their doors !
when they're home alone at night.

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here's another bt mummies..

When you were 1 year old,
she fed you and bathedyou.
You thanked her by crying all night long.

When you were 2 years old,
she taught you towalk.
You thanked her by running away
when she called.

When you were 3 years old,
she made all yourmeals with love.
You thanked her by tossing your plate on the floor.

When you were 4 years old,
she gave you some crayons.
You thanked her by coloring the dining table.

When you were 5 years old,
she dressed you for the holidays.
You thanked her by plopping into the nearest pile of mud.

When you were 6 years old,
she walked you to school.
You thanked her by screaming, "I'M NOTGOING!"

When you were 7 years old,
she bought you a baseball.
You thanked her by throwing it through the next-door-neighbor's window.

When you were 8 years old,
she handed you an ice cream.
You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were 9 years old,
she paid for piano lessons.
You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 years old she drove you al l day,
from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday party after another.
You thanked her by jumping out ofthe car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old,
she took you andyour friends to the movies.
You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old,
she warned you not to watch certain TV shows.
You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.

When you were 13,
she suggested a haircut that was becoming.
You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.

When you were 14,
she paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15,
she came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16,
she taught you how to drive her car.
You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17,
she was expecting an important call.
You thanked her by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18,
she cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19,
she paid for your college tuition,
drove you to campus carried your bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm
so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front ofyour friends.

When you were 20,
she asked whether you were seeing anyone.
You thanked her by saying,
"It'snone of your business."

When you were 21,
she suggested certain careers for your future.
You thanked her by saying,
"I don'twant to be like you."

When you were 22,
she hugged you at your college graduation.
You thanked her by asking whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.

When you were 23,
she gave you furniture for your first apartment.
You thanked her by telling yourfriends it was ugly.

When you were 24,
she met your fiance
and asked about your plans for the future.
You thanked her by glaring and growling,
"Muuhh-ther, please!"

When you were 25,
she helped to pay for your wedding,
and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.
You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 30,
she called with some advice on the baby.
You thanked her by telling her, "Thingsare different now."

When you were 40,
she called to remind you of a relative's birthday.
You thanked her by saying youwere "really busy right now."

When you were 50,
she fell ill and needed you totake care of her.
You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.
And then, one day, she quietly died.
And everything you never did
came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART.
If you love your mom, don'ttake advantage of her.

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Food fOr thought
the future belongs to those who believes in the beauty of their dreams

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7/09/2005 11:32:00 PM

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bOohOO~~ nO one's online.. hahaX.. yes.. i fell alseep in fRt of mYee com again...haha!

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Friday, July 08, 2005

went TM wiF mwachz tOdae.. was niCee.. cRaze anD puRe fun.. took mYee minD off lOtsa stuff.. whiCh i dun wanna tink abOut.. *overloaDed
went minibiTs.. bought this wOohOo~~ super AA earrings.. haha.. luRf it! went on shOpping aRd fOr mYee puRple tOp.. oh ya! tRied on this supEr niCee shOrts [that dOesnt look like one] omg.. it's juX plainly NICEE alrights... but i juX dun look niCee in it.. arrgh! tt's sO sad.. it feels so.. *wuDever.. if empty's the wOrd.. tO nOt be able tO buy something tt was love @ 1st sight..
hahaX.. went tO Gelare. haD iCe cReam waffle.. miRaculously,mwaChz managEd tO convinCe mi.. to forget bt calOries.. [i was so upset tt i did juX tt anD went ahead wiF it].. hah.. mwaChz juX haf hEr ways wiF mi...
yummiliCious [iF there's suCh tErm.. haha] deliCious sCrumptious.. *wuDever... the feelin's simply gReat.. *thumbs up well.. tt kinDa maDe mYee dae bEta anD cheered mi up somehOw..
oh ya! was fighting wiF mwaChz over the seats.. the niCee cushioned seats... childish? did tt wOrd juX cRossed ya mind? ha.. tt's a 18 anD a 19 yRs old KID fOr ya.. it was sO damn embarassin okie.. hahaX!
yup.. then sLacked aRd @ LJS.. cus mwaChz insist on gettin hEr ICE LEMON TEA .. blehX.. yup.. she was lookin @ mYee sCripts anD everithin.. then she was like listin out the different cases oF gRade jumpin tt shwe saw..
trip Fs-> CCD etC.. anD for her case.. to a trip As in A'level.. when i told hEr i dun c hOw a tri Fs can jump gRades lo~~ anD guEss wuD!~! mwaChz will be givin mi tuition fRom nXt wk.. haha! was kinda lazy fOr the 1anD a half year.. but deCided i seriously niD to get wOrkin frm now on..
tt reminDs mi.. was feelin sO damn depRessed duRing biO.. nOt tt MG saiD anithin to mi in paRticular.. but i juX kinda feel tt i fell intO a pit tt's tOo deep fOr anione tO reach out fOr mi...yup.. all the sudden.. the lost feelin haunt mi again.. anD was sad.. hOw one.. whO used to be sCorin her As anD everithing enDed up in suCh a sorri state.. neva in mYee life had i done tt badly .. this is e wOrst result i ever gOt in mYee 18 years oF education.. oR 14 to be eXact.. i m sCared.. tt everithin wld enD up like P6.. when i juX sCored a 229 anD ended up nOt gettin a sChool oF mYee chOice.. anD there.. i almost enDed up in teArs.. but was telling mYself tO be sTrong.. was feelin beta tOwards the enD oF the class... dar was like tellin mi.. Xiyue told her tt tong yee onCe said.. miDs would either dRive one to impRove anD make one depRessed.. anD i deCided i shldnt sulk over mYee results.. in faCt.. i should feel thankful this isnt mYee As... wang was like using hEr cal tO cheer mi up too.. realli thankful i haf a gReat bunCh oF frenx... thX fOr everithing.. sweeties ['',]
anw.. saw lotsa guys fRom hEr school.. anD i can sae flatly.. they aRe all cmi.. oOps! hahaX.. so mwaChz was like saying she was kinDa suRpRised.. when i said the other time tt her school guys aRe veri gOod-lookin.. well.. tt makes mi wOnder where haf tt paRticular bunCh oF good=-lookin guys fRom hEr sCh tt i spotteD gone... so i will neva link MJC guYs = good-lookin now.. ha3
oh mY.. i sounDed sO damn shallow.. kie.. sO looks aRent everithing [this is suCh a cliche] but sad to sae.. in reality.. one dOes juDge someone bY looks lo~~ nvm.. shall nOt go further into this.. haf got so muCh to blog bt todae..
went BUM.. omg.. there's this denim skiRt on sale.. it's onli like wuD... 23 buCks? arrrgh!! was damn tempteD to buy.. though it was kinda typical anD common lah.. juX a plain design.. but u noe..the bRand anD everithin.. juX makes mi sO tempted to buy.. was sO damn pRoud oF mYself! ha! deCided i should sTop bEing sO bRand-conscious.. anD this is where i shall start fRom.. though i am tRyin reeaal haRd tO convinCe mYself nOt to gO baCk there anD buy.. i am aCtualli kinda regrettin now lo~
wenT Missha.. tt's shop's damn cool la~ they got all the niCee stuff there!! luRf it! mwaChz was showing mi this ypghurt thingy tt she used.. btw.. mwaChz's skin is reeal smOOth... then tot oF wuD mummy tOld mi.. tt a ger shoulD learn to take good caRe oF her skin sinCe young.. tt's whY she was like askin mi tO gO fOr faCial wash oR smthg regularly.. hahax.. tot oF her words.. sO deCided i shld invest in some gOod facial pdts=D cus.. seriously.. i think mYee skin suX.. on mYee way tO good smooth radiant clear skin ['',] kie.. vain u may call mi.. cant be bOthered.. i m gOing Missha again fOr suRe!! i luRf it there!
oh ya.. kip bumpin into this SRJC guy.. anD mwachz was started this chi saying cRap abt meeting onCe is coicidental.. twiCe.. fate etc. cant remb.. argggh! mYee chi suX.. bOo!
was saying i wan to get home @ siX anD stuff... but enDed up slaCkin wiF mwachz till nione plus... anD she wldnt stop callin mi a bitCh.. bimbo... anD saying mi vain... blehX.. anw.. went fOx.. hahaX.. bought a green top [yes.. again.. i fell in love wiF them..] anD a shOrt... hahax.. in mYee spluRgin mooD again... juX feels awful.. to go shoppin anD nOt bUy anithin.. hai.. honestly.. i shld start savin.. anD stOP spluRgin like nobodi's buz.. kie kie.. shall kip mYee cash anD atm @ home frm now on.. hahax.. aCtualli splurging is mOre like investment to mi though.. oOps!

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was tOkin tO van earlier on.. alrights.. five's sOo segregated now tt even pk could tell.. i dunnO..to her.. i chOose nOt tO sae oR do anithin.. seriously.. i tink it will be better off tt way.. some things aRe better left unsaid.. i dunno.. maYbe i m saying all these out oF pique.. but i juX dun feel like dOin smthg against mYee wishes.. it would seem so hypocritical of mi.. if i were to tok to someone when i m obviously pissede wiF tt someone.. van haf a pOint there.. its kinda of special n hard to come by that i have friends like five .. in jc its hard to form friendships like i have with the four of them.. yes.. we used to haf it.. but somehow.. i feel tt it's lost along the way.. there's juX this distanCe thingy tt sets in.. btw mi anD her.. i dunnoe.. van was like saying she could tell tt ... is feelin hurt when i didnt look @ her when i speak.. anD tt she could tell tt she's feelin negleCted.. hurt.. so she feels it.. then again.. y is she dOin it to others? [ i apologise on mY part.. if she feels huRt by mi.. ] this has been gOin on for five daes.. stil i dunnoe wuD i want wiF her.. i guess.. like wud van said.. now is not the best time to solve these pRobs.. it's best to focus on studies anD leave all these emOtional baggage aFter A's..
then again.. it might be beyond repair then..
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Food fOr thought
because of smth ruin smth that can potentially be smth u'll treasure something v good in future

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7/08/2005 11:24:00 PM

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darz.. someone who's alwiX sO damn sweet ['',] look at wuD she posted..

Friday, July 08, 2005
CCY hon! dont let me catch you sleeping in lectures, im going to assure you one of our well known slap slap on the left + right side. anw, just want to cheer u on, we're going to make it. like it or not, we WILL make it. tgt.
losingsanity00:34

this suRe made mYee dae.. thX darz

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Thursday, July 07, 2005

as eXpeCted.. haD 3Fs.. eXpeCting anOther one tmR mOrning.. wasnt realli upseT.. hOnestly speakin.. was mentally pRepared fOr it.. consiDerin the faCt tt nOt muCh effOrts was puT in.. nOtiCe the differenCe.. it's nOt tt i did nOt devOte time fOr revision.. i did.. BUT with nO heart anD soul puT in.. wiF this kinD oF attituDe.. hOw am i supposed tO do well??
CHONG CHUN YING... wake up!! Your attituDe is nOt gonna bRing u aniwheRe in life..
kie.. was aCtualli quiTe affeCted bY the results.. haf been thinkin all dae long.. wuD am i to do?? i aint gonna let this gO on..
jeRemy ng was right when he saiD duRing leCture.. " how many mOre times u guys wanna make the same mistake? u haf onli gOt this tErm left to realli study.." anD fRom @t " iF u aint gonna learn now.. then when? after e As?" i m pRetty suRe.. there's mOre to cum tmR..
tO think oF it.. they aRe all right... sEriously... we haf onli gOt like 9wks left.. iF we aint gonna wOrk nOw.. then when? nxt year? eaCh time i tOld mYself i m gonna make a differenCe.. but then again.. did i?

did some kinda refleCtion eaRlier on.. here gOes..
1. mYee determination to get an A is neva sTrong enuff..
like wuD mr tan used to tell us.. how badly u wan tt A shall determine hOw haRd u worked for it..

2. hOw i fare fOr the paper oF the dae.. is laRgely determined bY mY mooD oF the dae... this is the WORST.. anD i ought to change.. sometimes.. i am juX dOin the paper fOr the sake oF dOin sO... juX wRitin dwn answers fOr the sake oF wRitin dwn.. nO muCh efforts put in to answer e Qns @ all!!

3. i did mYee revision.. but nOt freQuently enuff.. tt's y it neva sTays up thEre..

listening to look wuD you've done by jet again..

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7/07/2005 08:11:00 PM

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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

sometimes i wonder.. hOw on earth did i ever enD up in this sTate..

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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

feelin gReat tOdae.. went shOpping wiF mummY!~!~ haD loaDs oF fun ['',] feels as though i m leading some kinDa tai-tai's liFe.. as in seeing others gOing to sChool.. oR hanging aRd shoppin mall in sCh unifOrm.. whiLe theRe i m ... shOppin like nObodi's buz fOr daEs... hahaX.. juX luRf it..
yep.. anw.. tink mummY's kinda feeling guilt.. tt's y she took the time off tO shOp w/ mi.. +evil chuCkle+ am damn gOod @ makin ppl feeel guilt.. wahaha
yep.. went tO e cafe mummY wOrked in.. was kinDa niCee thEre.. hahaX..finalli gOt tO meet thOse ppl whom mummy alwiX mentioneD.. evonne, wilson, andY anD all hEr colleagues.. oh ya! did i mention tt evonne is sO damn sweet- looking.. as in.. she's nOthing like thOse veRi typical pRetty gErs u see on sTreet.. she dOesnt haf double eYelids.. meither does she haF thOse damn hOt figuRe.. she juX has gOt tt x-faCtor in hEr.. charisma she haF got.. anD her single sode dimple's sOo cute!! haD fun chatting wiF her.. she's easy-gOing anD everithin.. she's simply cool.. she's gRaduatin from NUS soon... she was sharin w/ mi bt jc and all tt stuff... she was like sayin we dun aCtualli haF tO wOrk veri haRd fOr pRelims.. as in.. we shld tRy to enjOy life mOre.. elSe when u look baCk..it's gonna be real bOrin anD lifeless.. i was sOo glaD to hear tt.. finalli someone's sharing same thoughts as mi.. hahah.. esp in a sChool like mine.. whiCh is sO damn unhappening.. we haF tO finD entertainment fOr ouRselves.. oh! evonne's juX baCk fRom holidae anD she gOt this neCklace fRom hong kong fOr mi.. tt's sO damn sweeeet oF her la~~ wilson's the clOsest tO mummi oF all.. he's niCee too... hahaX.. thOse typical mR niCee guy.. anD andy.. omg.. he's cuTe ['',] i juX cant help laughin when i see him.. it reminDs mi oF the things mummy tOld mi bt him.. hOw he haF to bReak the plaTes.. topple over stuff @ least onCe a wk.. thEre's juX this thingy tt make him sO cuTe as a whOle =D yup.. anD i almOst died fRom laughin when mummY was tellin mi tt he gOes fOr gers wiF long haiR pReferably.. i mean.. okie.. i shall kip mY comment to mYself... +gRinX he shall bE mYee eYe-candy nOw.. yaye!
anw.. the fRench tOast etC tt mummi's caFe sOld is realli sCrumptious.. it's simply deliCious!! sO muCh sO tt i can fOrget bt the calOries ..
passed bY choColaTe Box.. gOt smthg fOr daddy.. the salesgirl there.. i luRf hEr seRviCe.. *thumbs up..
wenT supermaRket.. mangO.. anD shOpped aRd bugis.. hah.. anD i still cant deCide btw the Puma anD Escada pErfume...
was rathEr late.. bY the time we aRe dOne wiF shOpping.. sO haD mYee dinner late.. bt 2030hRs?? omg.. feelin guilt..

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thoughts
heard frm mummy tt evonne's kinda interested in wilson... felt sad fOr her... as in wilson ald has a gf anD he's juX came baCk frm new zealanD wiF her.. all along.. she was a realli gOod fren oF wilson.. yep.. realli close fRens... but it's still friends... evonne's a good catch.. naD i can almost be 99% suRe.. she has gOt lotsa suitOrs.. tt's y i felt sad fOr her.. i mean i tink it realli huRts for her... well.. hOpe she gets ouT oF this pit soon.. i was telling mummy tt wilson sghld make it clear to evonne and stop givin hEr the wRong iDea.. then mummy tOld mi smthg tt kinda shOcked mi.. she saiD tt wilson cant tell tt evonne aCtualli like him... omg.. hOw can guYs eveR get sO damn insensitive? kie.. i shldnt be sO biased pErhaps.. maYbe it's all wishful thoughts on the ger's paRt...

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7/05/2005 10:42:00 PM

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one oF the soundtRacks fRom a loT like love.. niCee buT kinDa give mi a lOst feelin.. pErfectly fits mi right now..

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Look What You've Done _Jet

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

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7/05/2005 08:10:00 AM

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juX baCk fRom the mini class ouTing w/ daR, chOo, dan, jeff, xx anD penky
went pungOl cc tO plaY bball in da mOrnin.. wOohOo~~ mYee mr sun's out.. hahaX.. i juX yearn fOr a gOlden niCee tanned complexion ['',] went hougang mall.. shOp ard.. lunCh anD aRcade.. guess wuD ppl? aCtualli.. HM aint tt baD aCtualli.. it's in faCt slightly bEta than a typiCal neighbourhood shOppin mall=)) gYm session aFter tt.. haD a niCee wOrkouT... haD fun wOrkin wiF daR on the speCifiC muscles.. omg.. anD the shOwer theRe is damn niCee lo~~ waRm anD eveRithing.. anD the flooR's sO dRy anD clean.. was enjOyin the shOwer so muCh tt i dun feel like gOin ouT.. *thumbs up! headed fOr town.. watChed a lot like love.. went subway fOr dinner.. omg... the subway melt.. one wOrd fOr it.. simply GIGANTIC ... was niCee la~~ anD wuD's mOre impt was tt it's nOt tt high in calOries.. +gRinX.. went k-pool, shoppEd aRd heeren HMV anD slaCked aRd @ SPINELLI.. bEfore going fOr the 2140 shOw.. argghh!~!~ sO i missed dEspErate hsewives... omg..
the shOw wasnt too baD.. was pRetty niCee anD all.. but kinda tYpiCal.. anD mYee shoulder juX huRt like nObodi's buz when i sat against the seat.. fuCk.. it was sO damn painful when tt sunbuRned paRt touches the seat.. sO muCh so tt i was fidgeting half the time.. anD haD to sit like siDeways sO tt mYee shoulder dOesnt cum into contaCt wiF the seats..
haD a gReat dae ['',] lookin fOrard tO class bball after sChool on thuRs.. t's juX gonna bE sO cool.. *cheerios

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was it a mistake maDe??
i woulD rather nOt think oR tOk bt it...

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7/05/2005 01:02:00 AM

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maybe this wOrld is realli nOt as wonderful as i tot it is....
maYbe things has neva change fOr the beta @ all...
i m tiRed.. i dun wanna bOther animoRe.. i juX wanna sTop hEre.. i m nOt takin anY sTep fuRther.. i juX wanna bE alone.. perhaps wiF juX him bY mYee siDe... [ie if fairytales do exist].. i dunnO.. the lost feeling is juX baCk..

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

arrrrgh.. cant believe wuD mummi juX tOld mi... she nOt gOin shopping wiF mi on tues le... kinda pissed wif her.. cancelled everithing to shop wiF her on tt dae.. and nOw she's tellin mi she cant make it... omg.. kie.. she kinda nOes i m pissed.. anD is tRyin hEr best to make it up.. but wuD's e pOint? a pRomise maDe is a pRomise maDe.. wuD's mOre, she's the one whO ask mi acc her the last time lo.. anD all the sudden i m nOw left wiF a tues slot out oF nowheRe.. EMPTY
anD wuD's mOre infuriatin is tt.. nOw tt i m nat gg shoppin wiF mummy.. i cant get her to buY the Escada summer sEries fOr mi.. anD i simply luRf it sO muCh.. *shRiek
nOw the wOrld nO longer seems as appealin as bEfore... *sighs
nvm.. shall dRag some sweeties to go out wiF mi on tues.. +evil chuCkle+
top on da list: auntie char.. wahaha.. heaRd tt "oh nOoooooOO" cumin frm her?? kie kie.. time to sTop all mYee nOnsense.. after-effect wuD mummy juX tOld mi =( juX tRyin to entertain mYself.. *sob

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7/03/2005 11:48:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

*cheeriOs.. gOing h2O wiF darlin rub anD chaR.. hOpe mYee mr sun dOesnt go into hiding again.. i wanna gEt a niCee niCee gOlden tan!! wahahah... feelin sO damn high now... yEs.. again ['',]

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7/03/2005 11:01:00 AM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

a meaningful pieCe.. stOle this from char's bulletin ['',] oopS!

Missing someone
Missing someone is a terrible
but at the same time, sweet feeling.

U will be sitting around wondering
if u meant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings
hoping that it's him/her.

Looking out of the window
hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television
but thinking of her missing the final episode of your favourite show.

Laying on your bed,
thinking of the last time u went out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again,
talking about everything,

your dreams,plans, future.

Logging on to the internet
hoping to seehim/heronline.
When u realise that he/she isn't online
and did not return your page,
u will start worrying if he/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely
and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.

Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care
and u indulge in thefeeling of loving/caring for him/her.

But missing someone
and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.

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7/03/2005 10:36:00 AM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Saturday, July 02, 2005

sometimes.. i realli dun understand guys.. their thoughts aRe the haRdest to guess lo.. u neva knew wuD they aRe up to..
was chatting wiF **** ytd.. anD she was like tellin mi she nOes this nyp guy reCently.. he has gOt a gf anD is still askin her out fOr dinner.. saying tt his gf wun mind.. pls lah.. where on earth can u find suCh big-hearted ger.. he thinks he's foolin some kid? damn it.. he was wiF this ger fOr a wk.. anD they bRoke up.. nOw he's askin **** to consiDer him.. anD still told her "i m onli serious bt u" omg.. i mean.. i dunnoe how on earth i wld feel lo~~ iF i m his eX.. to finD myself being replaced in such a shOrt time.. anD he still claim tt he cRied over her.. cus she dumped him.. CRAP.. i mean.. hello?? he dun even nOe **** well enuff yet anD he's like tellin her this kinda stuff?? anD he's like so sweet to **** ald?? when they hardly noe each other.. well.. in mYee opinion.. i tink sinCe he can do this to ****... he can do it w/ ani other gers as well.. guys these daes aRe juX cheap anD despo.. they wan a R/s fOr the sake oF hafin one... wtf.. they aRe simply ANNOYING IRRITATING BRAINLESS SHALLOW speCies in this univeRse.. they can juX find themselves a gf.. in like less than a month after a bReak-up? fReak! well.. pErhaps nOt him.. he's one guY whom i m pRetty suRe wldnt do this kinda stuff..
arrgghh.. was tokin bt him wiF ****... anD memOries wldnt stop flashin in mYee mind... i can juX remb everithin bt him.. things he said.. things he did.. effOrtlessly... how he used to bReak... how he used to complain bt kelvin tan.. how he used to play vball.. how he got caught in da rain.. how he used tO "shOw concern" fOr jason hsu..hOw he used tO spike his head in a damn hilarious manner and gOt caught.. hOw he used to play duRin leCt.. how he tRied to get hOld oF mYeee fone anD everithing.. i can onli feel mYself fallin deeper into the pit eaCh dae...
him him him him is all tt filled mYee mind these daes.. y hadnt i learn to appreciate anD treasuRe it baCk in thOse daes?

i juX wanna live in mYee own fallaCy world.. with juX mi anD him.. nO one else..juX the two oF us.. happily eveR after.. [iF onli fairy tales eXist]

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7/02/2005 10:24:00 AM

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haD sO muCh fun tOdae!~!~ omg.. gErs.. i concluDe... can neva get enuff oF shopping ['',]
hEre's a list oF things i bought
* a GREEN top frm puRe milk
* twO tOps fRom mango
* 2 pairs oF casual wear slip-ons fRom charles anD keith
yup.. spent like like 90 buCks tOdae.. omg.. @ the rate i m spluRging... i m gonna haf to announCe bRoke soon.. [buT whO carEs.. i m in one oF mYee spluRging mOod.. fOr some reasons] anD theRe's sales welcomin mi everiwhere.. so i guEss it wldnt be niCee to tuRn them down.. kie.. this sounDs so silly.. juX wanna give mYself eXcuses to shop more buy more spend more ['',] god.. i sound so auntie..
met up wiF dar xue in the mOrning fOr gym session..omg.. the gym @ hougang's so cool lah.. hahaX.. luRf it thEre.. haD a niCee wOrkout.. feels sO damn gReat sweating it out ['',] hahaX.. luRf the abdominal maChine.. mY saviour!! then we went to the weights area.. mYee god... it's kinda sCary lo~~ look @ the way the ppl are tRaining their muscles... hOnestly.. i think it's damn dangErous.. anD @ e enD oF the dae.. u dun get niCee bodY tt makes ppl go "wow".. sO wuD's da pOint?? i mean theY aRe tRainin tO the eXtent tt theY look so nOt in pRoportion.. as though they aRe gonna fall anitime..
wenT to join five @ bugis after tt... was tRying tOps wiF dar in the same fitting room @ puRe milk.. thX to dar.. we cReated a scene there.. hEre's wuD happenEd.. we were tryin out this tOp tt didnt quiTe fit us.. in faCt.. i tink it's awful.. anD all the sudden.. dar openeD the dOor .. i was so shoCked.. i mean no way am i gonna let ppl caught mi in tt top.. tt's like e 1st tot tt came to mYee mind.. anD bEfOre i knew it...i let out a sCream.. a rrreeeeeal louD one.. so muCh so tt we could bOth see the ppl outsiDe tuRnin anD lookin @ bOth oF us... thEy look so damn stunned as well.. anD we weRe like laughin sO haRd in the fittin room.. i juX cant sTop laughin.. it was sO hilarious.. mYee stomach huRts.. after all tt laughin.. kie kie.. tt alwiX happen when we go into the same fittin room.. when we finalli gOt out oF the fittin room... jie wang anD chOo told us we looked as though we haf juX been rapeD..
wang left earli.. hai.. pOor gEr.. she's ill.. [sweetie... iF u readin this.. *get well soon kie.. anD i do miss ya vOice =P]

went suntec fOr dinner.. omg.. anD i saw pj!~!~ omg.. thX huR.. i haf neva seen him fOr suCh a long time.. anD i happily assumed tt i will neva ever see him in mYee entiRe life again.. but.. obviously.. i was wrong.. i was walikn along the fast food outlet when i saw this familiar lookin face.. tt pRacticalli make mi lost fOr a mOment.. all i could remember was tt i let out a shriek anD shOuted "omg..fReak!" bEfore i tuRned away anD walk off.. mYee god!! of all ppl.. i run into him.. anw.. i walked @ a super unimaginable fast speeed la.. despiTe mY giving-way legs.. i finalli stopped when i reached a "safe spot".. heard frm chOo tt he saw mi.. omg.. tink i was too loud..tt's like the wOrse thing tt can ever happen.. eek! she was like tellin mi pj saw mi anD was tellin his fren smthg tt makes them all turn ard anD look @ mi.. mYee god!! i dun wan anithin to do wiF him la.. fuCk.. wuD on earth did he tell his fRen..y muX he announCe it to the whOle wOrld... dumb ass..

anw.. went sunteC's sky garden.. it's suCh a lovely sight there.. juX tt there are ppl smOking.. sO went off pretty earli.. b4 i get pimples again.. oh ya..
reminds mi.. there's this guy tt was like smOkin.. anD the smoke almOst got into mYee face.. i shOt him a diRty look.. so did jie anD chOo... anD xue was like tellin us e guy was like starin @ us... fuCk.. count himself lucki i dint see tt.. iF i did.. equalli hard stare is wuD he will get frm mi.. i swear.. wuD's e pRoblem wiF ppl thEse daes.. smokin away on strrets juX liddat..anD thinkin they aRe aRe merely excercisin their freedom to smoke.. i hate that kinda attitude in smOkers..
cant they be mOre considerate.. and perhaps go to the smokin area.. shld they nid a puff... kie.. i m aCtualli nOt tt against smOkin.. so long as the smoke doesnt get into mYee faCe.. i am juX pissed wiF tt guY @ e moment.. *wuDever. thEse ppl can smoke all they wan anD suffer frm cancer.. cant be bOthered wiF them...
went mangO.. omg.. SALES!!! anD tt spells tRouble.. cus we aRe juX gonna spenD $ like there's nO tmr.. true enuff... we spent a hell lots oF $$.. anD dar.. whO announCe she didnt wan to spenD ani $$ right frm the beginning.. fell into the tRap again... haha... i was feelin so damn high.. but kinda feel sad fOr the ppl wrkin there lah.. look @ the kinda mess singaporeans cReate duRin sales... mYee god.. nvm.. shall nOt dwell on it... oh ya.. i cant find mYee mng bag!! u noe.. thOse giappng bag [as dar calls it] arrgghhh!! i cant find it.. nvm.. shall gO town tmR anD cheCk it out.. dar's rite.. it's kinda sad.. sales make mng stuff look so damn wOrtless..
went to charles anD keith.. think we spent @ least an hr plus there.. hahax.. was tRying on anD playin aRd.. bought the same slip-on as xue.. mYee god.. it's sO lovely.. anD da pRice too.. it was on sale.. +winkX
i simply luRf this kinda tai-tai liFestyle
aFter tt.. was on ouR way home... the 4 oF us were so damn tiRed tt ouR legs almOst gave way.. haha.. oh ya!! mi anD dar.. we weRe walkin along ciTylink.. when we deCided to play biTchy.. anD walk wiF style.. sO da la~~ we began dOin so.. when dar's slip-on deCided tO give way anD it bRoke in da middle of nowhere.. we were laughin so haRd..so her newly bought slip-on came tO use.. speakin oF tt.. think tt hEr mummY is damn cuTe.. as in she's so image conscious.. tt she thinks it's seriously nOt alright to wear flipflop tO shop.. i had a good laugh.. when xue told us tt..
hahaX.. da la~~ home.. feels gReat..
hmmm... tOts running thRough mYee mind..
shld i get tt bitchy pink bag anD tOp fRom bugis
shld i get tt bRown nail polish?? smthg tt i m pRetty suRe nO one will eveR buy.. anD i can bE the onli one with bRown nail polish ['',]
should i accept tt tuition assignment?
+gRinX.. shOpping wOrking anD pErhaps gOing gYm wiF sweetie char tmr.. makes mi get all exCited again=))

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7/02/2005 12:34:00 AM

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Friday, July 01, 2005

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hahaX.. yes.. a happi gEr i am nOw.. nothing bEats shOpping shOpping anD MORE shopping!~!~
i luRf this wOnderful lovely wOrld.. *winkX

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7/01/2005 10:12:00 PM

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