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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

hahaX.. less than 12 hRs nOw.. i juX cant wait!! sEriously.. i tink i will bE tOo eXcited to dO mYee papErs tmR..
anw.. was stuDying anD i deCided i niD tO paint mYee nails... mummY painted hErs.. sO i deCided i niD one tOo.. hahaX... paintEd some daRk coloR.. look damn bitchy.. buT cant bE bOthered lah.. i m in onE oF mYee sOoper high mooD... sO muCh so tt i was cRazi enuff tO paint juX the fingErs on one oF mYee hand.. ~ i nsanE
anw.. nail polish shall bE anOther add-on item tO mYee shopping list.. i juX realised i dun haF white one!! hahaX..
eveRithing 'bt tOdae's simply gReat.. mummy's dinneR.. yep.. she cookEd tOdae ['',] *cheeriOs.. even mugging!! well exCept fOr the mOrnin biO papEr perhaps.. cant bElieve i juX gave it up liddat.. wuD's wiF mi ytD?? well.. gOd nOes..
anw.. almost dOne wiF muggin.. juX da last lap.. anD i will haF mYee niCee shOwer anD hit mYee pillOw after tt... niTes ppl anD *bEst oF luCk fOr tmR =))

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6/29/2005 11:16:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

i juX cant wait!~! omg!! it's 1711hRs now... juX 17 hrs mOre tO mYee niCee one wk bReak tt i haF been awaitin fOr!! *cheeRios.. juX 17+ hRs mOre anD mYee long planneD shOpping liSt [in one oF da last entRies] can cum intO use..
+gRinX.. soon.. i will bE able tO meet up wiF sweetiEs like cutie mOron shaOjia.. "auntie" chaR... jOanne.. anD nOt fOrgettin ruB.. five.. etC.. we all deserveD ouR bReak!! kie kie.. maybe nOt mi.. BUT whO caRes?? hahaX.. i m juX gOnna let mYee haiR dOwn fOr da wk anD enjOy as muCh as i can.. till i gEt satuRated.. b4 anOther rounD oF mugging [pRelims] cums...
hmm.. i am nOt gOing tO slack todae.. juX gOin intO the veRi last lap oF miDs.. anD dO mYee veri BEST foR chem @ least.. tmR is nOt gOin to bE anithing like tOdae.. this i pRomiSe!! *mug haRd sweetiEs..

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6/29/2005 05:10:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD
a BAD gEr i am...

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6/29/2005 11:42:00 AM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

hmm... 1905hRs.. anD i m sTill hEre.. wiF biOdiveRsity untoucheD @ all.. i juX dun feel lyke lookin" @ it @ all.. hOnestly.. i wld rather do chem... anw.. was feelin sO high aftEr da damn long dae oF papErs.. haD mathS anD chem tOdae lah.. the timetable's kinDa cRazi isnt it?? anw.. am happi cuS i am one dae neaRer to mYee one wk bReak!~!~ *cheeriOs.. a real bReak this time rounD.. nOthin like tt oF june pseudO hOlidae... tt kinDa hol simplY suX.. argghhh!!~!~ +gRinX saw him tOdae.. sO ouR sChool cpd aint tt big aFter all.. i was in seat A5.. he was like 8 rOws away fRom mi.. oh ya.. shall pOst bt mYee miDs "sCenes" duRin da papers aFter mYee miDs.. did lOtsa silly things.. obviously.. theRe's nOthing muCh one whO dint studY muCh fOr da miDs could dO.. other than to finD herself some entertainment...

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6/28/2005 07:04:00 PM

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Sunday, June 26, 2005

gReat.. in a matter oF like 12hRs.. i will bE in da chilly hall.. doin mYee geepee papEr... somehow.. i juX cant seem to gEt all the biO faCts intO mYee head.. like a mental block oR smthg..am pRetty suRe mYee results aRe gOin to resemble tt oF pRomos again.. 'O's anD 'E's?? somewhere along the line.. anD if i m luCki enuff.. perhaps a "sCrapped thRough" D gRade?? it dOesnt realli matter aCtualli.. does it? sad to sae.. i'm numb.. tO all thEse gRAdes.. wuD's e pOint??
anw.. saw tt name on mYee window grills juX nOw.. [kie kie.. nOe u guys gonna look @ mi wiF some weiRd eXpressions on ya faCe..anD gOin "WUD??!".. but yes.. i wRote his name on somewhere on mYee window gRills the last time i was sufferin frm insomia] anD needless tO sae.. memOries it bRought.. kinDa miss thOse daes baCk.. anw.. i'm aCtualli lookin fOrward tO retuRnin tO sChool aCtualli.. yes.. dun stare @ mi as though i m some kinda fReak.. but sEriously.. there's every reason to look forward to gOin to sChool.. exCept tt dReadful miD-year perhaps... i m gonna see mYee sweeties and all tmr.. anD perhaps rushin tO sChool.. hahaX.. i m all pRepaRed to do so.. mYee instinCt saes tt i m gonna be laTe fO r school again tmr.. wahaha.. perhaps wiF rub anD val?? tt's fun aCtualli.. anD perhaps i might run intO him -- kinda haRd though.. consiDerin da seems sO small yet sO BIG sCh cpd ['',] nvm.. iF miRacles dO happen.. tt will make eveRithin bt tmr gReat.. eXcept the mids again.. they r juX way tOo *wuDever..

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6/26/2005 08:37:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Saturday, June 25, 2005

a thought suddenly stRikes mi again... yes.. again.. i alwix think alot when it cums dwn to muggin.. juX anithing to get mi away fRom muggin.. i will dO it..
anD as i dRift away.. i was thinkin.. wuD eXactly am i dOin oR gonna dO wiF mYee life?? i see ppl wOrkin towaRds thEir gOals anD eveRithin.. even tt guY who's visualli impairEd.. whO went fOr da channel u "supErstaR" thingy.. is wOrkin haRd to puRsue his dReams.. was readin zC's blog.. @ least he's hafin some diRection in life too.. he nOes eXactly wuD he wans in life.. sO tt leaDs mi tO mYee BIG question maRk.. wuD on earth am i dOin?? am i gonna let eaCh dae... 24 hRs juX passed liddat?? anD bEfore i knew it.. i would be like wuD.. 30years old?? this thought's kinda sCary.. kinda feel sOrri fOr mYself.. i juX cant imagine..omg.. am thinkin tOo muCh.. time to stop all mYee nonsense.. bEfore one oF mYee nErve impulse i mYee bRain deCides tO snap.. hahaX..
anw.. juX baCk fRom SOT.. tong Yee was pRetti siCk.. i was pRetti sleepY... haii.. everithin juX maDe mi feel sO helpless anD gO sigh sigh.. nvm wiF muggin.. i m givin it up.. will juX make the mOst out of the 1day left.. anD tt means SELCTIVE studyin.. whiCh is wuD i aLwiX resOrt to.. hEre.. i m fallin baCk into da same old tRap again [ps: look @ mYee june 16 entry] i feel sO sad fOr the pRinCipal whO taught mi sO muCh in life.. feels as though i m lettin him dOwn...
was on mYee home wiF chOo.. omg.. i muX haF lookeD so damn auntie... i was like standin in da tRain.. cOpying nOtes?? hahaX.. neva in mYee life haf i look sO busY anD *wuDever befOre.. anD tt reminDs mi.. on mYee way to SOT earlier in da dae.. was @ city hall station anD this uncle was like tryin to catch the train.. tt he stepped on mYee flipflops.. and i was like.. slipper-less fOr tt 5seconds or so?? in the middle oF citY hall station.. mYee goD.. hOw embarassin.. thX hur.. he apologised.. sO i wasnt realli pissed though.. juX irritated.. cus... *wudever.. i juX dun like it.. oh ya!! saw this cute puppy @ da faRegate.. it's so damn kawaii!~!~ anD chOo was like saYin i loOked like da doggiE.. oh my.. reminDs mi oF the time when i was in P6.. hen malvin wldnt sTop callin mi the one-ear dog.. haha..
anw... weNt tO replenish mYee mint sweet supplies tOdae.. bought like 3pkts oF it?? am obsessEd wiF them theSe daes.. cant sTop poppin them one aFter anOther into mYee mouth.. onCe u pop.. the fun wun sTop [haha.. dOesnt this sounDs like tt pringles ad??] lovin" it!~!~ [perhaps cus theY aRe gReen] hahaaX.. i can easily like finish da whOle pkt a dae?? mYee goD.. think i gonna get diabetes soon.. but then again.. i cant be bOthered .. Yes.. tt's hOw tiRed i m wiF everithin..

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6/25/2005 08:35:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Friday, June 24, 2005

kie kie.. hEre's anOther one.. tt juX gOes tO shOw how damn bOred i m.. reading da FS bulletin bOard.. smthg i cant be bOthered wiF mOst oF da time..

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A ninety-one year old woman died after living a long dignified life.
When she met God
she asked him something that had long bothered her.

If Man was created in God's image,
and if all men are created equal,
why do people treat each other so badly?

God replied that each person who enters our life
has a unique lesson to teach us.
And it is only through these lessons
that we learn about life, people, relationships and God.

This confused the woman, so God began to explain.
When someone lies to you
it teaches you that things are not always as they seem.
The truth is often far beneath the surface.
Look beyond the masks people wear
if you want to know their heart.
And remove your own masks
to let people know yours.

When someone steals from you
it teaches you that nothing is forever.
Always appreciate what you have,
for you never know when you might lose it.
And never ever take your friends and family for granted
because today is the only guarantee you have.

When someone mocks you
it teaches you that no two people are alike.
When you encounter people who are different from you,
don't judge them by how they look or act;
instead base your opinion on the contents of their heart.

When someone breaks your heart
it teaches you that loving someone
does not always mean that person will love you back.
But don't turn your back on love
because when you find the right person,
the joy that one person brings
will make up for all the past hurts put together. Times ten.

When someone holds a grudge against you
it teaches you that everyone mistakes.
When you are wronged,
the most virtuous thing you can do
is forgive the offender without pretense.
Forgiving those who have hurt us
is the most difficult and courageous thing Man can do.

When a loved one is unfaithful to you
it teaches you that resisting temptation
is Man's greatest challenge.
Be vigilant in your resistance against all temptation.
By doing so you will be rewarded
with an enduring sense of satisfaction
far greater than the temporary pleasure
by which you were tempted.

When someone cheats you,
it teaches you that greed is the root of all evil.
Aspire to make your dreams come true,
no matter how lofty they may be.
Do not feel guilty about your success,
but never let an obsession with achieving your goals
lead you to engage in malevolent activities.

Upon hearing the Lord's wisdom,
the old woman became concerned
that there were no lessons to be learned from Man's good deeds.

God replied that Man's capacity to love is the greatest gift he has.
At the root of all kindness is love,
and each act of love also teaches us a lesson.

The woman's curiosity deepening, God once again began to explain.

When someone loves us
it teaches us that love, kindness, charity, honesty,humility, forgiveness and acceptance
can counteract all the evil in the world.
For every good deed, there is one less evil deed.
Man alone has the power to control the balance between good and evil,
but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough,
the power is too often abused.

When you enter someone's life,
whether by plan, chance or coincidence,
consider what your lesson will be.
Will you teach love or a harsh lesson of reality?

When you die will your life have resulted in more loving or hurting?
More comfort or pain?
More joy or sadness?
Each one of us has power over the balance of love in the world.
Use it wisely.
Don't miss an opportunity to nudge the world's scale in the right direction.
Pass this lesson of love around.
For each person who practises it,
there will be a little less evil in the world and a little more love.

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6/24/2005 06:15:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

i m sO damn bOred wiF muggin.. *sigh.. i can hEar mYee inner soul askin mi tO give it up ald.. was lookin @ da fs bulletin bOard.. came aCross this.. think jeff pOsted it.. pRetty sweet ['',] bRings lotSa fond memOries..

In kindergarten
your idea of a good friend
was the person who let you have the red crayon
when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In primary one
your idea of a good friend
was the person who went to the washroom with you
and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

In primary two
your idea of a good friend
was the person who helped you stand up to theclass bully.

In primary three
your idea of a goodfriend
was the person who shared their lunch with you
whenyou forgot yours, having left yours on the bus.

In primary four
your idea of a good friend was the person
who let you copy the social studies homework
that you forgotten to do thepreviousnight.

In primary five
your idea of a good friend
was theperson who saved a seat at the back ofthe bus for you.

In primary six
your idea of a good friend
was someone who comforted you
and lent theirshoulder to you when you received yourPSLE results.

In secondary one
your idea of a good friend
was the person who helped you to pass the "loveletter" to your crush/stead.

In secondary two
your idea of a goodfriend was the person
who comforted you when youbrokeup with your boy/girlfriend
and saying that the person was not even worth of your tears.

In secondary three
your idea of a good friend was the person
who would come over to yourhouse
and help you decide on which clothes towear on your first date,
although she had her date waiting for her.

In secondary four
your idea of a good friend was the person
who would help you in the 'O'Levels examination when you had chicken pox
and on the examination day you recovered
but your friendhad the disease and had to stay home for a week.

Now, your idea of a good friend
is still the person who gives you the better of the two choices,
holds your hand when you're scared,
helps you fight off those who try to take advantageof you,
thinks of you at times when you are not there,
reminds you of what you have forgotten,
helpsyou put the past behind you
but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer,
stays with you so that you have confidence,
goes out of their way to make time for you,
helps you clear up your mistakes,
helps you deal with pressure from others,
smiles for you when they are sad,
helpsyou become a better person,
and most importantlyloves you!

If anybody crossed your mind when you were reading this mail,
thank that person for being your friend all these while!
No matter where we are or who we become,
never forget whohelped us toget there.
There's never a wrong time to pick upthe phone or send a message
telling your friends how much you miss them or how much you love them.
If you love someone, tell them.
Remember always to say what you mean and mean whatyou say,
never be afraid to express yourself.
The difference between expressing love and having regrets
is that the regrets may stay around forever.
Most importantly, stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped to make the person that you are today
and are what it's all about anyway.
Pass this on to your friends of the past and those of the future, not forgetting those whom you met along the way.
-Treasure your friends and family and each day u spent with them-

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6/24/2005 05:40:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

was tuning in to pErfeCt 10.. listening to the news when all da sudden i felt small... haf no idea why myself.. but all da sudden this thought juX flashed past mYee mind..
the wOrld doesnt revolve rounD mi.. while i may be stuCk in mYee room.. buRying mYself unDer leCture nOtes.. muggin.. the rest of the world may be dOing smthg as significant as saving one's life? oR there may be someone somewhere in this part of the world tt's on the verge of the death or smthg?
all da sudden i feel so small...

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6/24/2005 07:04:00 AM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Thursday, June 23, 2005

was tuning in to perfeCt 10.. carrie chong's late night show last nite.. was listenin tO her refleCtion thingy.. it maDe quiTe some sense aCtualli.. heRe goes..
within everyone oF us live a rOse.. w/ thOrns.. whiCh aRe ouR shOrtcomings in life.. mani a time.. we kip seeing the faults we haF.. we think tt nOthing gOod can cum fRom us.. sO muCh sO tt we fOrget tO water the rOse itself.. anD eventualli.. the floweR whiCh is ouR gOod pOint dies off...
watcheD fRienDs @ 2am.. yes.. da unearthly hOur.. b4 continuing w/ mYee mugging...

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6/23/2005 10:50:00 AM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

omg!! jumpeD out oF mYee beD @ 5am in da mOrning.. wasnt even suppOsed tO zZz last nite!! arrgghh!! nvm.. wuD is dOne is dOne... it's good tO catCh some zZz aCtualli.. sO tt mYee minD wld bE mOre fOcused anD readY fOr mugging latEr... then i saw tt sQuary thingy again.. anD deCided i niD entertainment tO sTart e dae off... sO da la~~ gluEd mYee butt tO da sofa.. fiX mYee eYes on da teevee... AGAIN...
theRe's this show bt style featuRin Nicole Kidman.. omg.. she's gOrgeous.. she looks gReat in pRacticalli anithing... anD i can onli aDmiRe wuD she has gOt.. anD silently gO "wow"..
words oF comfOrt: nvm.. confidenCe is da thing.. one dOesnt haf tO look like niCole kidman to look gReat..

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6/22/2005 10:45:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Monday, June 20, 2005

DNA polymerase.. gluconeogenesis.. aCetylcholine.. alamine.. adenOsine tRiphOsphaTe.. mYee minD's oveRloaded wiF inFormation.. juX hOpe it all sTays up in mYee hEad till @ least mon.. kipin mYee fingers cRossed anD +pRaying haRd+ hahaX.. yEs.. muggin haRd as i pRomised.. feels pRetty gOod...
when nite falls.. happily gluEd mYself tO e soFa anD watcheD despErate houSewives .. getting eXcitin... 3 mOre episoDes!~!~ +gRinX.. then gOt sOrt oF lazy.. wenT on tO watChed Las Vegas.. pRetty niCee['',] i am sO damn despErate fOr enTertainment tt i dun minD being a couch pOtato aCtualli.. i coulD haF continuE sittinG in frt oF da TeeVee watchin all da shOws.. BUT then again.. guilt filled mi.. n i deCided i should sTop all mYee nonsense anD continued wiF muggin in mYee iCy cold room..
hahaX.. then da la~~ terenCe was usin da com.. anD we enDed up slaCkin in mYee room.. playin aRd.. silly silly us.. wahaha.. i kinda hate da lost feeling i get @ nite sometimes.. when i will despErately nid someone to tok to... anD it's niCee hafin teRenCe wiF mi... tt's when he will listen tO all mYee cRap... hahaX.. oF cus.. in da dae... he's iRritatin as usual.. like all typical bRothers in da entiRe universe.. oOps! kie kie.. it's alwiX fun wiF him aCt.. luRf him['',]

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6/20/2005 11:55:00 PM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Sunday, June 19, 2005

went tO granny's plaCe in da mOrning... she fell dOwn last week anD is now ill again.. haTe it when smthg happens to hEr.. she's sO weak nOw tt she dOesnt even haF da eneRgy tO walk on hEr own.. mYee unCle haF tO like carry hEr all da waY tO da kitchen to haf hEr lunCh... she saiD tt hEr bones aRe like aChin all over.. hEard fRom uncle tt hEr spine is swollen.. daddy was like sayin cus she's skinny anD tt's y when she fell dOwn.. her bOnes aRe injuRed sO badly.. anw.. daddy bought lunCh.. anD i gave gRanny some oF mine though she haD hers earlier on.. she didnt want to haf it initially... think she's afraid tt i might nOt haf enuff.. but anw.. managed to convinCe her and everithin.. was sittin bEsiDe hEr eatin.. in mYee mind i was like thinkin hOw muCh longEr will i haF e luxuRy oF sittin bEsiDe mYee dear granny.. dOing little things like eatin.. chattin w/ hEr.. i looked at granny anD realised tt she's reeeeeaali old.. even older than da last time i saw hEr.. she's sQuintin hEr eYes and everithin.. i m sCared... tRuly sCared tt i will lose hEr.. a gRanny whO realli dOtes on mi.. e gRanny dearest tO mi.. i kinda oF this feelin tt she's leavin us anD everithin [touchwood... iF onli this helps].. i haf no idea why mYself.. but i realli hOpe tt she will live long enuff to @ least see mi gRaduate fRom uni? oR even longer than tt.. +kipin mYee fingers cRossed+
haF mYee hair cut latEr in da dae.. omg.. it's sO damn layered.. i have yet to finD ways to manage mYee new hairstyle anD i haf gOt wOrk ltr.. gOOd luCk tO mi.. but i kinda like da "flagella" enDs.. oR wuD [five] called the "spErm tails"
hmm... was kinDa runnin laTe fOr wOrk aFter i reached home.. met rub.. anD took a cab dOwn to OCC... haha.. da la~~ we gOt htere on time.. saw bRyan.. goodness!! he's takin attendanCe anD tot he was sO BIG deal.. like some kinda authorithy..blehX.. mYee foot.. he's aLwiX actin big anD everithin.. likes to tok so much tt i wish i could stuff his mouth wiF a tomato anD shut it up... am tellin u.. he luRfs it when he's asked to carry da fiRe swoRd duRin 1st couRse pResentation cus he thinks he look cool and everithin.. but obviously.. HE DOESNT .. feel like pukin when i saw him.. miCahel anD salem looks sO muCh better with da fiResword la.. bryan+fireswoRd= NO LINK to mi.. blehX.. hates da waY he dOes things.. i neva onCe bothered to show him gooD attituDe.. he was like markin attendanCe anD callin up mYee name.. i saiD " here" [which was a pretty clear anD louD one] anD gOd nOes why he dint hear it.. anD asked again.. "chunying.. whO's chunying? where?" anD i gOt so feD-up wiF him tt i pRactically shoutEd across da room.. he was sO shocked anD stunned fOr a few seCond.. gReat .. i shut him up.. anD when he was assignin da tables.. was askin da young girls to stand in frt.. mi anD rub simply refused to move.. juX tO irritate him.. anD he saw tt anD think he's awaRe tt we dun like him.. tt loathsome figuRe.. he's suCh an eyesore.. anw he asked us kindly to stand in fRont again.. [smiling insiDe: sErve u rite fOr irritain mi] anD he gave us da fRont tables.. but i dint even thank him fOr tt.. though i wld nOrmalli say a thanks @ least to others.. i simply shOt him a diRty look anD walked off.. +gRinx i won...
hahaX.. e fxn was pRetty cool.. bRide anD groom looks compatible.. anD mYee table ppl aRe niCee anD humOrous.. makin mYee gReat joB even gReater.. haD fun sErvin them.. anD of cus.. da thing tt kips mi gg is the tOt oF da calOries buRned!~!~ +gRinX.. happi happi~~
kie.. was pRetty tiRed when job endEd.. saw "auntie" anD went home tgt.. she gave mi and ruB choColates... w/ i felt sO sinned eatin while chattin wif mummy nad catchin some .. i mean chocolates are okie but not after 8pm... to be exact in e middle oF da nite .. mYee god.. anD over da past few daes.. i haF accumulatEd sO much FATS yes.. THIS MUCH from da chocolate feast i haD.. there aRe so manY chocolatEs @ home anD they aRe kinda hard to sae no to['',] anwwww.... tOkin bt chocolate feast.. the [five] is gOin to some hOtel [cant remember whiCh] tO haf chocolate buffet after ouR dinner anD danCe!! whee~~ can u imagine?? bein buRied wiF a mountain oF choColates?? wahaha.. kie.. this is a little tOo imaginative.. i m lookin forward to it!~!~ whiCh is like a few months fRom now?? after ouR A's.. +gRinX.. BUT of cus.. we wld haF tO gO thru' ouR mids 1st.. w/ is like a week fRom now? the thought itself is sO sCary la.. i haF nOt even completEd a single subjeCt anD i am sTill hafin fun over heRe.. i still haF got a long long way to go lo~~ i m aLwiX thinkin oF givin up anD eveRythin fOr e upcomin eXam anD pRomise mYself tt i would work haRder fOr da nExt.. w/ neva onCe happen..sO i think i haD beTa stop tRystin mYee evil inner soul tt's askin mi to stop muggin.. anD MUG HARD from tmR onwaRds anD even fOrgo mYee zZz.. @ e expense oF gettin eYe bags anD dark ciRcles... shall sTop enjOyin life 4 a wk.. anD i can haF a whOle wk oF fun after da miDs ['',]
i hereby announCe that CHONG CHUN YING shall haf no life fOr this coming week... +evil laughter+ [kie kie.. all these are gettin kinda cRanky.. bEta sTop it]
something fRom Chad Michael Murray tt's gOnna kip mi mOtivatated fOr this week.. hEre he says..

Passion and drive! I study with my teacher every day.He would coach me and I'd go to class every Wednesday night. I'd read plays and Stanislavski's theories.I would read up on Adler and Meisner. I do as much studying as I can. If you have the passion and drive, you're going to do it.'

sO let mi haf one mOre night oF zZz tOnite... maybe i will dReam oF him.. the one anD onli chad michael murray.. niTes ppl['',]

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6/19/2005 11:55:00 PM

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

saw this on lijie's blog... gReat to see this again.. smthg w/ mr tan used tO taught us... smthg shOrt.. yEt meaningful.. sOrt of woke mi up fRom mYee dreams... it's time fOr mi to get up anD sTart to learn.. it's neva too late.. isnt this wuD ppl aLwiX sae??

AUTOBIOGRAPHY INFIVE SHORT CHAPTERS
From There's a Hole in My Sidewalk
by Portia Nelson

I
I walk down the street.
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.I am lost ... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault
It takes forever to find a way out.

II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend i don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III
I walk down the same street.
There's a big hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.I still fall in. It's habit.
My eyes are open.I know where I am.
It's my fault. I get out immediately.

IV
I walk down the same street.
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V
I walk down another street

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6/16/2005 08:51:00 PM

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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

wuD's the mattEr wiF guYs these daes?? mYee god... EGO .. it juX gOes tO sshow tt it wasnt an assumption when i alwix saY guYs aRe damn egOistiC... [oR rather eXcept tt 0.0000000000000000000001% oF e pOpulation.. juX in case] *hate it !~! it's juX a plain simple woRd "cowaRd" anD theY can gEt sO *wudever...
guY's egO... onCe u huRt it... tt's it fOr u.. juX bE pRepared tt theY will bE twiCe as nasty tO u... +puRe disappOinment+ dO theY haf tO be sOoOo harsh wiF their wOrds anD everithing? anD worse still, in this case.. tO a gEr.. dun tell mi bt gender eQuality over heRe.. haF it ever occurred to them tt wOrds can huRt?? i mean.. it's juX a puRe misundErstandin" oR rather misinterpretation... SHE did nOt even did it on puRpose.. sO wuD's da big deal?? i haF eXplained everithin anD clearly this is juX a trivial matter.. grrr.. #$%^%&.. wuDever.. cant be bOthered! someone.. iF u gonna sCream @ mi oR wuDsoever 4 this... juX gO aheaD.. i dun care!! i am out oF here! +PISSED+ GUYS ARE SIMPLY CHILDISH!!!

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6/15/2005 01:36:00 PM

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Monday, June 13, 2005

kie kie.. let mi cLear tings up... hOpe eveRithin will b okie after this...
daRz: tt *someone is a fren oF mine.. anD we weRe hafin some silly aRgument tt daE.. anD it was meanT to be a jOke.. sOri tO get u intO this misunDerstandin".. thX n luRf ya daRz ['',]
sOmeone: gOt a taste oF mYee dar's sColdin huR.. blehX... sErve u right 4 bEin sO mean tt dae.. hahaX

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6/13/2005 06:20:00 PM

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went shOppin wiF ruB tOdae.. was sO darn fun anD rewaRding!~!~ *gRinX.. was pRacticalli gRinning in puRe elation 4 e whOle dae..
wenT Zara.. EspiRit.. Isetan.. MangO.. etC.. tO shOp shOp shOp shOp anD shOp!!! was lookin fOr "auntiE" char b'dae giFt.. wanTed tO get hEr smthg fOr hEr anD hEr deaR.. bUt ruB was sOooOoO stRongly against it..[tink shE 's juX in da mooD tO plaY tt silly gamE oF "rejeCtion"] blehX.. it was like a sTraight nO frOm hEr.. iwas still thinkin it was mYee best iDea ever.. +soB+ shE juX rejeCt mYee suggeStion w/o givin" mi a valiD reason.. feel like stRanglin hEr.. hahaX.. anD sO whEn sHe suggesTed buYin wallet..it was a sTraight NO fRom mi as well.. wahaha.. sillY rubber=P thEn all thOse iDeas oF pErfumes.. tOps... bla bla bla juX came tO mYee minD.. anD finalli we bought hEr thiS RoxY bag tt i haD wantEd tO buY da last time fRom paCifiC plaza... niCee anD sweeet =)) hOpes she like it... spEakin oF auntiE.. i'm kinda missin hEr ald... hope tt mYee mon will bE hEre soon['',]
anD guEss wuD?? i founD mYee gReen tOp finalli!~!~ naT juX one but TWO... yaye!! wuD can i sae?? dEtermination is juX da waY tO live life=)) *cheeriOs.. [if onli i were this deTermined when iT cums tO studiEs.. haha!] haF been huntin fOr a niCee gReen tOp 4 suCh a dReadful awwwwwful painful loooOooOog pErioD oF time lah.. anD da la~~ i fouNd them tOdae=)) tink happinEss muX bE wRitten all ovEr mYee faCe.. tt ladY in da shOp was lyke laughin when shE saw mi gettin sO darn eXcited when i saw tt tOp.. anD when ruB told heR i was lookin fOr smthg gReen 4 mYee waRdrobe cus i tink i laCked gReen 4 mYee wardRobe.. shE askeD iF mYee wardrobe was a rainbow.. hahaX.. she's cuTe huR.. aCt. it's juX tt sudden affinitY i haf for gReen sTuff.. tO mi.. gReen's simply lovely .. @ least fOr now['',] anw.. she's niCee anD all.. hEr sErviCe is like fiRst- rated kie.. +thumbs up.. i haD a gReat time chattin wiF hEr..wlD luRf tO patRonise hEr shOp again aCt...it's a pity e clothEs in hEr shOp aint realli mYee stYle.. eXcept 4 tt tOp i boughT.. heeX.. anw.. felt gReat anD thiS sense oF achievemenT tO founD tt tOp... hmm.. nOw i haF gOt this sudden uRge tO finD bRown tOps.. hahaX.. shall gEt it on mYee nXt shOppin tRip.. maYbe it's time tO gO sunteC.. haD been quiTe a long time sinCe i last went theRe..
oh ya!! gonna catCh mr anD mrs smith + monster-in-law wiF rub=)) *cheeriOs
aFter tt was mOre shOpping .. tRying ouT oF clothEs.. etC.. sO muCh sO tt i aCt. fOrgot all abt the bag i wanteD to buY fRom mangO!! anD i onli like realised it on da waY home.. +shRiek+
anw.. i was tOo sleepY tO bOther bt it.. shall juX go gEt it on mYee nXt shoppin' tRip.. +yawn

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6/13/2005 12:07:00 AM

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

hahaX... feelin sOrt oF lazy.. shall kip this shOrt..
shOppin wiF mwaChz postponed tO nXt wk.. sO went to wOrk wiF ruB toDae.. tiRed... e fxn's sO darn big... e gRoom's juX sOoOoOoo riCh.. 120tables... omg.. anD the menu aint anY simple menu.. buT some superior ones kie...
hahaX.. wantEd to haf fun.. sO bOth mi n ruB went to sErve cOcktail... anD gOt caught bY tt qinglong.. blehX.. anD he gOt one oF us baCk.... faRni guY=P
feelin damn gReat aFter wOrk... haD fun anD everithin.. *gRinX.. thinkin oF all da caloRies buRned anD da $$$ =)) wahaha.. --happi happi mi--

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6/11/2005 11:55:00 PM

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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

bRoken pRomises... smthg i HATE.. *ahem... someOne... a bRoken pRomise: onCe bRoken, it shall remain bRoken.. anD i will aLwiX rememBer it.. wahaha... sO u shall live wiF ya bRoken pRomise ['',] blehX

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6/08/2005 10:17:00 PM

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i neva knew that the wOrld is such an unhappY one...

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6/08/2005 09:28:00 PM

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i neva knew that the wOrld is such an unhappY one...

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6/08/2005 09:28:00 PM

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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

omg... wOke up anD founD ouT smthg hOrrendOus.. mYee gOd!~!~ i haF gOt eYe bags anD dark ciRcles.. *shRiek* sO daddy wasnt jOkin all along.. when he saiD tt i haF gOt panda looks... gReat.. nOw i look lYke a tYpiCal panda.... all thX tO the laTe nites.. i am nat gOin tO zZz laTer than 1230 fRom nOw.. unless absOlutely neCessaRy.. until mYee daRk ciRcles aRe gone @ least.. sigh
hmm... continuEd wiF mYee muggin".. gOd.. i haf gOt sOOOOooooOoooo muCh tO do!! well... i bRought this upoN mYself..shldn't haf sLack fOr tt 1.5 yEars.. nOw i haf gOtta wOrk eXtra haRd tO get it all baCk.. anD tRust mi.. this aint fun @ all.. i could haf been easilY killeD bY tt gigantiC pile oF tutOrials.. leCtuRes nOtes.... sigh sigh
anw.. wenT tO SOT fOr tong Yee's lessons... niCee niCee...=)) hmm.. was dOin quEstion on youth.. he went on to tell us e pRinciple oF rights anD respOnsibility anD the link btw thE twO.. he was also tellin us the common fallaCy teens haF on thEir rights.. tt was smthg whiCh we aRe all guilty oF.. this i can safely speaK fOr 90% oF the teens popuLation.. yEt we dun realise it.. as usual..his lessons aRe simply intErestin" anD enriChing.. he gOt his own uniquE waY oF gettin e msg aCross.. he neva fails in gEttin mYee attention=))
oh ya.. hEard fRom tOng Yee that jjC is unDergOin some changes.. as in thEir sChool cultuRe...the atttituDe oF the sTudent populatuion tOwaRds life has changEd.. tOng yee was like tellin us tt theiR pRincipal taught them in suCh a waY tt they aRe gRateful fOr wuD theY haf gOt.. when thEy gO fOr OCIP... theY dun aCtualli build sChoOls oR wuDsOever.. theY simpLy watcheD... fRom theRe... thEy tRuly leaRned tO appReciate liFe.. thEy aRE sTudyin haRd nOt simpLy beCus thEy wanna gEt gOod gRades.. bUt bEcus thEy aRe gRateful tt thEy aRe given an oppOrtunity tO stuDy.. amazin isnt it?? hOw e pRincipal managEd tO change the whOle cuLtuRe oF the sChool.. now i tRulY understand why theiR giRls v.ball team gOt the championship this yEar.. capable pRincipals like tt oF jjC anD mjC is all tt u niD tO make a diffeRenCe.. it aLwiX somehow inspiRe mi when tong yee tells us this kinda sTuff.. it feels gReat tO see ppl bRingin bt changEs in this world.. juX like hOw miss quEk, anD hEr committee aRe wRitin pRopOsals tO bRing bt changes tO the education system in s'pOre.. hOw thEy aRe gOnna ask NGOs tO run CCA in sChool.. etC.. it's bRilliant=)) these ppl simplY haF gOt gReat iDeas... *thumbs up
saw liYan on mYee way home=)) hahaX..was sO happi tO see hEr!~!~ she's sTill sO cuTe as eveR.. wiF tt laughtEr oF hers.. then all thE memOries oF thE seC 1 guiDe camp was flashin @ in mYee mind... hahaX.. puRe fun.. though we gOt punisheD bY hEr infintY timEs cus we simpLy refuSed to zZz baCk then... haha.. she muX haf haD a haRd time being ouR CL... oOps!
kie kie.. time fOr beD.. b4 mYee dark ciRcles gEt wOrse.. niTes ppl['',]

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6/07/2005 11:27:00 PM

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Sunday, June 05, 2005

yaye.. wokE up feelin gReat.. hEard fRom rongX ytD tt theRe wun be ccjC fOr us animoRe!~!~ whee~~ we aRe all gReat ppl.. we make things happen.. +chantin happily+ all e little effOrts make thiS miRacle happen=))) *cheeRios shE was like tellin mi tt thEre's a BIG article in e papEr.. saYing tt e SMC yes.. e SMC.. deCided tO sTick wiF nyjC.. =)) a smaRt move i muX sae.. thEer's realli no need fOr a change juX bEcus oF e IP pRogramme theY gonna impLement... oR juX tO commercialize e sChool...
anw... wuD makes mYee gReat sae even gReater is e faCt tt mYee flu has deCided tO leave mi alone.. aFter mYee houRs anD hOuRs oF zZz=)) +gRinX

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6/05/2005 09:09:00 PM

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Saturday, June 04, 2005

whee~~ wenT to val's plaCe anD plaYed tennis wiF ruB kel anD junxiong.. sTill feelin" high fRom the game.. yaYe~~ mR sun deCided tO be kinD anD da la~~ it means i can haf mYee tennis game tOdae=)) iT was puRe fun.. wahaha... hitting e balls ouT oF the couRts anD making junxiong [aka ball piCker.. oOps!! he's gonna sTrangle mi=P] piCk the balls.. i was laughin sO haRd=)) kie kie.. shall nOt be mean.. thanks okie..hahaX.. sTill cant help laughin.. anD when the raCket flew ouT oF mYee hand.. i buRst ouT laughin again.. kie.. aCtualli i was laughin half the time.. wow... feels gReat aFter the game=))
we wenT tO meet up wiF "auntie" chaR aFter tt.. tO geT e album fRom hEr anD to chat.. guEss wuD?? she's finalli meetin hEr dReam guY fOr dinner... Yipee!! haahX.. catch up wiF her fOr a shOrt while.. then shE went to meeT him... +gRinX... wish e best fOr the bOth oF them anD tt things will wOrk ouT well=)) hmm.. fRom wuD i gather.. he's aCtualli a sweet anD niCee guY la~~ he beTa tReat mYee sweetiE well.. else.. +evil chuCkle.. goD nOes wuD i will dO tO him...
omg... mYee nOse went "running" again.. when i neva bought hEr anY 'running shOes'.. thX tO some ppl who smOked out thEre juX noW[ sweaR i m gonna slap them in the faCe iF i nOe iF did it]... gReat.. i m juX waitin fOr mYee nOse tO fall off anitime now...

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6/04/2005 08:47:00 PM

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whEre's mYee sweetiE mR sun?? gOne hidin again?? nOOooOOooOOO... i wanna play tennis!~!~ puRleeeeeeese... @ least staY till mYee tennis session enDed kie kie?? +chanting awaY+ i dun wan miss rainY.. i juX wan mYee bRight red sun['',] i wan mYee tan!!! wahaha..

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6/04/2005 02:53:00 PM

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Friday, June 03, 2005

a new pErspeCtive and things look as gReat as bEfOre=)) i shall nOt bE sillY anD succumb to e stubborn old mi again..

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6/03/2005 05:07:00 PM

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